*|Tired
Super tired right now. It's 330am. ARGH!!! I want to just finish up the actions for my character animation. I will probabaly do my facial animation later in the afternoon. I am so so tired!!! ARGH! My back aches from all that sitting. YAWNZ... I am so tired. Jit, where are you? I want a massgae!!!
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*|NOT SLEEPING TONIGHT
I know i should be sleeping. It's like 130am in the morning. What's more, I have class tomorrow from 1-4pm and 730-1030pm. I have been working on maya all afternoon. It's just that now it's finally going somewhere. I don't wish to stop animating it. I really wanna get it right. It's frustrating to keep having to redo bits and bots of animation just because the timing does not feel right. But now that I am heading somewhere, I doubt I will want to go and sleep.
Sigh... I know, not sleeping is bad for health but maybe I just do this once today. It's been a long time since I really work through the entire night. Let's see how long I can last tonight. Hopefully I won't fall asleep in class tomorrow. Gotta do maya. It's additive. Wahaha... I can't believe I actually say that.
To my dear who might end up reading this, don't scold me for not sleeping. You've known how stressed I was this afternoon trying to get it right. I broke down twice and now that I am finally going somewhere. Let me go on with it even if it means I won't be able to sleep. Just this once, don't scold me. Sorry dear.
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*|Mastering crying
I can be crying my eyes out and no one will notice even if someone is like less than a metre from me. Sometimes I wished someone did, I want a hug but that rarely happen. Just a hug that's all I am asking. Just one hug. None came. Stop crying girl. I just wished someone knew, someone understood. I wish someone cared enough to ask now what was wrong. Have I mastered crying so much that no one notice that I am. Guess I have. I want to do my homework. No point crying. No point.
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*|Timetable
Initially, I thought my timetable was pretty messed up. Look at it...
Mon 9am-12pm
Tues 1pm-4pm, 730pm-1030pm
Wed 330pm-630pm
Thurs 730pm-1030pm
Fri 1pm- 4pm
Quite a fair bit of late afternoon and evening classes I must say. But today I realise something, I actually have time in the morning to read my daily bread and not only that, I get to practice on my piano. No one can stop me from practicing in the day time. I am not ruining their sleep with my noise. In fact, they shohuld all be awake by then. Happiness.... Not a bad arrangemnt I must say.
It's funy how I keep complaining to God that I have a sucky timetable, only to realise in the end, it turn out to be good for me. Haha... What can I say, God knows me best. He knows what is good for me though I don't. He really know me.
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*|Holidays
I am so exhausted. Clearing my room is really not an easy task at all. The amount of rubbish I have is unbelievable. As always, I found lots of forgotten letters and small gifts. If only I had the time, I would have opened each and every letter and read through them. Reflecting upon yesterday's activities, I think I am pretty satisfied with myself. I have finally managed to complete the "Winnie the pooh" jigsaw puzzle. I have been working on it for weeks and it sure is tough. Of course, I couldn't have done it without Jit. He was a big help. No time to blog anymore for now. It's high time I clear up the mess I made on the floor.
I can't wait for morning. The plan is to travel randomly on bus with Jit around Singapore and take photos as we go along. I miss photography. It's time I start working on the skills I learnt from black and white photography lessons. Too bad I am using colour film. If it has been black and white film, I would be able to develop the photos in school. I kinda miss dark room a little.
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