*|LA (1st day)
I am finally in LA. It took us quite some time to clear the customs. It’s kind of inefficient. I got pointed to the wrong direction and stuff like that. Isabella got retained. I really hope she is alright. Till now, we don’t know the reason why yet. It’s 11pm plus here in LA. The plane ride was really long, about 18hrs and more. My legs are stiff from all that sitting even though I do make frequent trips to the washroom. I watched a few movies onboard, Hula Girls, Blades of Glory, Music and lyrics etc. I drank Singapore Sling onboard. It's really not bad. Haha The air stewardess is amazed at how Ying Han and I kept our complexion. LOL We just looked young that's all. Nothing much is happening here for now. Guess I signed off then. I am now waiting for Wei Keong's friend to pick us up.
Oh yah, I had an hour stopover at Tai Pei. And I came across this room called “Praying Room”. Shall upload the photos later.
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*|Today
Today was a pretty interesting day. I set out for Bugis to look for bolts and nuts, things that I needed to make an armature. My dad mentioned that Sim Lim tower may sell these things. Apparently they do not. I ended up wandering around, going in and out of various hardware shops asking where I could buy these things. The answers are all so different and vague. I was given directions to places I didn't look, something that sounds like "a church, wholesale area, things sold on the floor, the end of bus 170, multi storey car prak". The directions are really weird and well I am not familiar with that area. In the end, I just wandered around. Ending up in places that I felt kinda unsafe. All around I see uncles and basically guys. Where are the ladies?
But I really have to thank God for keeping me safe and surprisingly, my wandering led me to the "treasure". I got what I need. That place is like a mechanic heaven. Rows and rowes of boxees of parts. WOW! If by any chance anyone wants to do armature using nuts and bolts, please go to that area!
Bumped into Samuel at National Library today. He looked different. Usually I pictured him in some cool outfits and hairstyle but today he was totally dressed down, wearing a faded Mr Happy cartoon T-shirt. His hair is just normal. Really unlike him but what is really funny was his expression when he asked me what I was doing in the national library. My answer was "National library has water cooler." and I was holding on to a water bottle then. LOL. His expression was one of "I can't believe this is your answer." Haha. Priceless!
Enough crapping for now. Time to practice on my keyboard! P.S. I saw a group of men fishing at a canal in between the roads leading to Sim Lim and Rocher. How weird and out of place that is.
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*|Do not worry
Yesterday I was just too stressed. I didn't let go of all my burdens and rely on God to see me through it. I didn't put my faith and trust in Him that everything will be alright in the end. I was worrying too much. Ri Xin, thank you so much for reminding me about it and the verse in the bible. The best thing to do is to always go back to God's words. In there, we can find comfort, shelter support and most importantly, Love.
Matthew 6: 25-34 Do Not Worry
25 "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
28 "And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If this is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you little of faith? 31 So do not worry, saying 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Threfore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
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*|Wish someone , anyone, was here
I really stressed out. I reached my max and I just wished you were here. It's funny how everytime I needed you by my side, you would be overseas. Sometimes my friends ain't here by my side too to cheer me on. I wished I had someone to hug. Only God is here by my side to spur me on but it's hard to do it all alone. I need help. I am tired. I can't do it by myself but yet I know I havn't much of a choice. Depend on no one girl. I doubt this make sense to anyone else except me.
Cries...
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*|You laid aside your majesty
Yesterday was Jia Ling's and Richard's wedding. It was beautiful. I love weddings. During the wedding's praise and worship session, the worship team sang one song and I really loved it. Wish I had the song. It goes like this...
You laid aside your majesty
You laid aside Your majesty,
gave up everything for me.
Suffered at the hands
of those You had created.
You took all my guilt and shame,
When You died and rose again.
Now today You reign,
In heaven and earth exalted.
I really want to worship You my Lord,
You have won my heart
and I am Yours.
Forever and ever,
I will love You.
You are the only one who died for me,
Gave Your life to set me free.
So I lift my voice to You in adoration.
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*|Cambodia
Did I say I was sad? A week ago, Malcolm, Pang Ren, Jit and I finally settle everything and buy air tickets for the Cambodia trip. But the very next day, the newspaper reported about dengue fever and I ended up not being able to go. I know everyone is telling me not to go and that it is for my good. I know that too. I don't want to get dengue fever and end up not going for my USA trip. But that does not mean I I don't feel sad. I have heard many people telling me not to go and each time I just end up being sad.
This coming Saturday I am sending them off at the airport. I don't know how I will be feeling that day. All I know is on that day, I have to wear the smile the whole day. I could be in that plane. I even have the air tickets booked under my name. I even got a seat in the plane. I have hostel reservations in Cambodia. So near yet so far.
I know I can put on a smile the whole day. I always do that in the past. This is no different. Just have to smile for about 8hrs and after they enter the gates, I can be myself again. I know I feel sad. I know I end up crying. I wanted so much to go for the trip and I could, had everything done, really to go and yet I couldn't. I feel bad for causing my parents to waste that sum of money. Am I really a girl who always waste my parent's money? I really didn't want to. I really didn't. But this time round I can't help it. I'm sorry.
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*|sad
Sad... That is all I can say. Module is gone. Can't go cambodia trip even though I have tickets and all. Demo reel not done. Name card not done. Everything not done. Other than breaking down, I don't know what to do. I am stressed. This is the holidays for goodness sake. Why am I so stressed?
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