*|Never fail to surprise myself... LOL
I finally got my laptop. Doing all the administrative stuff now. Registering fot this and that. Erm... I still dunno where to go to register for windows. Erm... Can someone help me on this? Love the feel of the laptop. Wow... I didn't it is that late now. Haha!
Anyway yesterday was a "test your endurance and strength" day. Went to buy laptop and went to Yi Hui and Ting's hostel room to dump the laptop there before meeting up with Magdalene and Justina to get our art supplies. I am really very surprised with myself. Frankly speaking, I am not the kind who will volunteerly lend people that I am not super close to a big sum of money. But apparently I did just that. When Justina said that she couldn't draw out money to pay for the art supplies cos the machines didn't accept UOB card, I immediately told her that I can draw out $350 from my account and lend it to her. Wow... That is not the usual me, I must say. Haha
Anyway, we went to buy our art supplies and all that after finally getting all that cash. Went up to drawing room 1 and ended up buying evrything on the list that is provided. Ended up sharing 2 sets of newsprints, 2 sets = 1000 sheets!, with Justina, Magdalene, this gal who asked wif she could share wif us and lastly a guy whom Magdalene approached. In the end, we got 200sheets each, just the amt that we needed! But my gosh... It is so freaking heavy that the lady cashier passed to Magdalene underneadth the table and she and I were like lterally dragging it along the floor. Luckily the guy who is sharing the newsprints with us help us. Tat is tough work and for once in my life, I buy that much art stuff, bout $239 worth of it and the thing is I am only 3/4 thru the whole list that I have to buy. LOL!
Carrying it down the stairs and to the carpark was the worst experience ever. It is damn heavy that we have to stop every few steps and by then our hands were red and I mean really RED! and painful actually. Wads more some of the plastic bags are starting to give way. Wad lousy quality! We finally stopped at the pathway cos it was too heavy. It was then that there was 3 or izzit 4 guys from our faculty who came up to us and helped us carry our stuffs along with theirs. Phew... Really cant imagine Magdalene and me carrying 3 huge and heavy bags of art stuff plus 1 big A2 portfolio bag. In the end, all of us including the guys managed to get a taxi and the guys help us load our stuff and told the uncle to drive to Hall 15. Along the way we chatted and got to know each other name but I can't rmb it now. All I know is thatone of them is from G3 and the other G6. Haha So far the only classmate that I have in G5 is Salleha... The rest of my frens are in different tutorial groups. Erm... Yet to find the guys the taxi fares. Gotta try find them in school liao.
Anyway, I took a taxi home and Whoa... Was it heavy and difficult to carry the stuff from the carpark to the lift and then into the lift and up to the 9th floor and then out of it. In the end, I gave up and called my godsister, Grace jie jie, to help me. Wow... I never knew that art stuffs could be that heavy. I am so glad that the guys help us , if it weren't for then, we be stuck around the S3 area for a long long time!
Another thing that I did that surprise me was that when my brother asked me if he could have the free thumb drive that came with this laptop, I gave it to him. LOL! I couldn't believe I did that. Haha... Oh well, I mean I already had one so might as well give it to him since he wanted one and my dad didnt buy for him cos he thinks it is ex.
Haiz~ I dunno wads wrong with me these days. Ever since I fell ill until now, I dun hav much appetite for food. I can just go without lunch and dinner and I would have do away with breakfast as well. I am just not hungry nowadays and I suddenly hate things that are sweet. Wads more, I feel disgusted after eating tibits. I dunno why... Its just that the aftertaste of all the tibits that I love to eat just suddenly seemed to disgust me. The only time I will eat and overeat is when I stay over at Yew Tee. There is something seriously wrong with my appetite and stomach nowadays. Going without food is bad but I really dun feel like eating it. Nth seem to appeal to me. Someone help me get back to my normal eating routine without me feeling disgusted over the food that I hav eaten. Haiz~ I am so tired... Guess I better go sleep. Its 3am. Haiz~ I have to go clear up my room 1st before sleeping! Sigh!!!
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*|Anger dissolving...
Damn angry now. Wads wrong with my mother... Which part of this phrase "clear already" does she not understand!!! I have already cleared my cupboard and those things I want I have already out it on the shelf. And now she ask me to clear them... I HAVE CLEARED IT ALREADY! Wad cant u understand! CLEARED ALREADY!!! Apparently my mum's meaning of clearing the cupboard is throw away everything! Damn it then y ask me clear might as well say throw away all, might as well throw away the whole cupboard so the whole room will be bare. Why keep asking me to clear the bloody cupboard when I have already cleared it? Why not ask Cedric to clear his toys that he put inmy cupboard and obviously he dun play with them anymore!!! Why not ask him clear??? Why must I clear when I have already cleared and hav NOTHING, I REPEAT NOTHING else to clear. Damn pissed off now! DAMN PISSED! Now she is nagging at me again! So it is my fault! Fine... Everything is my fault! It is my fault for not clearing, my fault for entering this faculty and having to buy all the art stuff, YAH, everything is my fault. Even if Cedric's table is messy, my mother will not scold him and now that my table is messy a bit and not as messy as Cedric, she scolded me. Fine! FINE! Since young till now, it is always me, always me! Say it then, everything is my fault! I am the one who caused the whole family to be thisway. I am the one who caused my brother's attitude to be like that. Afterall this i not the 1st time she is saying this, might as well go ahead nand say!!! SAY IT!!! EVERYTHING IS MY BLOODY FAULT! Might as well say I am a useless and worthless girl... But then again, I be been said as thatmany times... Fine this is not the 1st time anyway... this is like more than 50times. I didnt say anything when my mother refuses to move this big foldable table (AND SHE NEVER FOLDS IT) which she uses as an ironing table from my room. I didn't say anything when my bro didn't wanna clear hos toys.
So much for evrything. Though I put as nick as "Damn pissed, dun talk to me", I wished my close frens will talk to me but Fat hope... They not even online. I am angry till tears but oh well... This isnt the 1st time. So much for getting over my past. So much for everything. Each time something good happens or when I finally got over my past, something bad will happen such that everything just comes back and all I am is hurt, very hurt but I learn to deal with it. Its not the first time anyway.
U know how funny it is... I wanted to talk to someone and I thought of Hui Nan and the next moment... Hui Nan talked to me. I am feeling so much better now. U know it is really very coincidental tat the chapter of this book "More like Jesus" that I am reading now is about "A forgiving heart". God really has his unique way of teaching me things... But his ways are hard, but cos it is hard, the fruits is much better than before. Haiz~ Oh well... Guess I just have to throw away some of my stuff afterall.
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*|Today!
I went to school today even though I dun hav lessons. Was lost as usual. Got my matriculation card! Registered for classes... Actually registered for french but after today's lessons, I dun wanna take french anymore. Firstly, I don't like the teacher's teaching method. Secondly, its so chim, I dun understand. Thirdly, I like Japanese more. Yup so I drop french and took japanese instead. So I am going to check out how japanese lessons are like on thursday. Got my laptop as in I am paying for it on Thursday but I have already reserved one under my name. Oh, I bought my textbook for ADM431 : Art thru the ages. It is freaking big and heavy and I have to bring it for classes. Oh my gosh! Its more like an encyclopedia! Oh well... I shall start reading thru it liao. Study a bit before the lessons starts! Oh I almost forgot, there was this really nice senior (I dunno who she is), I was lost and she brought me all the way to the tutorial room. She is super friendly. Whoever u are, a big big THANK YOU! Without her, I be walking round and round and end up being late for classes.
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*|ADM Orientation
Today is one great day!!! I starting to love my faculty! I was scared at first but wow after everything that happen today. I kinda can't wait for school to start. Other faculties are starting school tomoroow but for SADM, we starting next week. That is cos we have to buy art materials and all that and Art Friend will be coming down to NTU on Thursday and Friday to sell art supplies. My art supplies cost $358.29 so far... shall stress the word "SO FAR". Haha Super duper expensive! Looking at this is a major shock! But cos of this, I dun have school this week and that is kinda good! Haha. Have to buy textbook tml... Think it is called "Drawing thru ages" or sth like tat.
Went for a tour around ADM's teaching facilities. MY GOSH!!! Its all state-of-the-art stuff! Its just so stylish and modern. I LOVE IT! The drawing studios and labs are fantastic! The best of the best I ever seen and to think this is only temporary. Wow... The actual school will be so much better then! I can't believe it. We even have our very own pantry and they be getting a big refrigerator for all of us to store our food and it be emptied every Friday! Major coolness! Oh and we have our very own student lounge. Its really beautiful, glass door, really cool lights and comfy sofas. LOVE IT!
Had a buffet dinner in the lounge today and MY GOSH... My school actually invited a renowned harpist to play for us. I expected music in the form of a cd or sth but not a harpist. That is just so cool! My gosh... The harp must be really expensive. It has these beautiful carvings on it. Wow! Thats really all I can say! WOW! Meet lots of frens and I finally get to know the other SAJC gals. It was really nice knowing them and thru them, I get to know so many other people. But somehow I still can't seem to find anyone from my group, group5. I keep hearing people saying they from group 1 or 7 or 2. Wad happen to 5??? I am seriously amazed at myself for actually being the first to talk to strangers. Normally I dun speak first. Whoa, I had more than an hour long conversation long with people I just met and that is so surprising for me cos usually I dun talk much but today is a different thing. Haha. Oh the SA gals that I meet was Alecia (Yan's fren), Boo XinYing (Pit's fren) and Isabella (Not sure if I got her name right). Also get to chat with Magdalene, Kim, Salleha and Justina. Also met Xin Ru and Yi Xin, both are Alecia's fren. There is this RJC girl that I met too but I cant rmb wads her name and she is the only girl from RJC. Good thing I am not the only one from SAJC.
I had lots of fun today during orientation despite all the talks. Really excited about everything. My lecturers are all really cool people. They are funny and one of them looks like Austin Powers, a bit like him. Haha, I think I am really going to love it here, 4years in SADM. Now I am kinda stressed cos I dunno wad to take for unrestricted electives, either French or Japanese. I really dunno! Haiz!
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*|Blessed!
Tomorrow be the first day of school! I am kinda nervous. But I am feeling very blessed! I have frens like Zi Xuan and Si Xiu praying for me that God will show me who to befriend. Seriously I am touched. God cares for me! So do my church frens... Actually my church frens are more like brothers and sisters. We are one family in Christ! I just feel so touched and blessed! It is really good to trust and obey God. With God in my life, life is GREAT! All thanks to God's blessings! I LOVE MY LIFE! To wake up each day is a great blessing! There is one thing I really learn today is not to take things for granted and to treasure each and every thing or person in my life. I love you, God! Love you all, my frens! When I am old and dying, I look back at my life and I am sure I see many footprints on the sand. Footprints of God, footprints of mine and my frens and I be thankful. Thankful for all the people in my life. Thankful for God having choose me to be his daughter. Thankful that God will even bother with an unimportant person like me! :D Haha The song that is playing on my blog seem to fit in with what I am saying here in this entry! LOL... I better go sleep soon! SCH STARTS TML! YEAH!!!
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*|Pit's belated bday celebration... r/p (relationships)
This is wad happen on the same day that I went to Pulau Ubin. The reason why I split it up into 2 entries is cos it is really long! Haha! Finally back in SIngapore. Though I was very tired then, I went to Pit Lu's belated birthday! And it was really belated, about a month I think. Haha. I havn't seen her for a ver long time. She be studying chinese in NUS FASS. Guess thats means I won't get to see her that often since different university. We talked about school and orientation camps and all that. Guess all of us are really confused on the electives and minor part. Can someone kinda explain that to us cos reading it up on the school website doesn't seem to help at all!
We chatted a lot while eating our banana split at Gelare at Far East LevelOne. We alked about 03S73. About the guys and all the rumours going on in class during our JC years while in SAJC. We talked about last year valentine day and how it somehow bonded our class together except for Irwin who didn't participate in our exchanging of presents. Oh Now then I realise that the ferrero rocheo given to us by Shin was actually for Irwin. But it ended up in our stomach when Shin found out that Irwin didnt wanted to get Par anything and revealed himself to Par about him picking her name. Poor Par! I think we talked lots about how buddy-ly Siu Kwok is and that Siu Kwok being more like a sister to us than a brother. LOL!
We chatted about the rumour about Yan Jie and Joseph. Haha... Joseph apparently is scare of Yan cos Yan Jie is fierce. Yan, see lar... U so fierce! Abmit it lar, girl. LOL! Haha... Yun say she is going to tell Joseph to enter NTU Business. We trying to create opportunity for Yan and him to get together after his 2 years in NS. Wad a laugh! Yan say it is not possible but we still think that both of them are compatible. We chatted a lot on relationships and all that and our criterias of boyfriends.
For me, my boyfriend firstly must be a christian. Secondly, he have to accept the fact that I love God more than him. Thirdly, I prefer to have relationships that developed out of friendship. Erm... Think my criteria kinda ok to fulfill. Its not too tough. Haha... In the past, I thought my criterias were that the guy have to be sincere and understanding and all that. Not that these criterias aren't important, they are but they are not my top 3 criterias. Actually, since young my top 3 criterias have been the 3 that I mention just that I didn't realise it until recently. Haha... LOL! When I was really young, I know that I will only date a guy if I think he is "the one", the one chosen by God for me. Haha I still remember a few times when I thought that I like a particular guy or when I was going to accept a guy to be my boyfriend, there will always be this feeling that tells me that he is not the one and if I choose to ignore that feeling, it ended up bugging me so much so that I start to panic! It is as if there is an alarm system inside me that has gone off and is telling me that I am in danger if I accept! Haha Guess I finally realise that this particular nagging feeling is actually God's way of telling me that he is not "the one". Really thankful for that. If I have accpeted those guys to be my boyfriends, I am sure I ended up being guilty for breaking up or being heart broken when the relationship fail.
Haha... I only managed to sort out all these when I read this book "I kiss dating goodbye" by Joshua Harris. Actually, it is more of learning how to lead a life of purity that God wants of us and enjoying our gift of singleness that God has given. Come to think of it, I am so glad I am not attached or anything cos I know that I am not emotionally stable until recently. That is cos I just finally to learn to let go of all those things that tied me down emotionally, things that hurt me really badly. It is only recently that I forgive and let go of all the hatred and anger and sorrow. Now I am different from who I used to be in the past, a much much happier me, all thanks to God. Now I no longer worried over whether I get a boyfriend in the future, haha I shall leave all that to God. Why worry when God has already planned it all out, wait for Him to tell you who the person is and when it is the right time to get more serious about relationships.
Oh That reminds me of this thing going on at night on radio Class 95FM. Its a blind date radio programme thingie. My gosh... The girl who is supposed to choose a guy for a date to an event say that when she gets a boyfriend, 80% of her time will be spent with him. MY GOSH! 80%... thats a lot. If me, it be around 30%. I mean... Hello... I have frens and family, I can't just forget all about them and be with my boyfriend all the time. I won't let my life revolved around me and my boyfriend. 80%! THAT IS NUTS! 20% of time for God, frens, family and studies!!! That is so ridiculous. I can't do it. 80% means losing contact wif frens and family and not being connected to the world. Tat to me is too much time wasted on a guy. I mean, there has to be a balance between family, frens, life and boyfriend right. Haha.
Realise I really think a lot nowadays. That is good. My brain kinda rotting away liao. Haha Should start using it again!
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*|Pulau Ubin!
Went to Pulau Ubin today with Ah Bin (aka Ah Min), Ah Tan (aka Ah Shan) and Ah Ting (aka Ah Xin). Its really a short boat ride from Singapore to Pulau Ubin. Bout 10mins or so, compared to the boat ride to Kelong, this is so much faster. Anyway we rented bikes and went cycling. Along the way, there was a lot of rubber seeds and we collected quite a few of them. We wanted to make them into bracelets! Haha... Thats a really special sourvenir.
Anyway, I shall talked about quite a few stuff that happened there. We nearly went in circles. Luckily we didnt, imagine travelling round the same area twice. Oh some of the roads though looked like a normal trail actually becomes so much narrower, bumper and leads us deeper into the forest. We went along one but less than 5mins later, we back tracked and it was then when I fell. The way I fall down is really damn funny. Ok Let me tell u, we stop cos we realise that the trail is really leading us deep into the forest and so we got off our bikes. I did that too. I was standing there holding on to the bike's handle and cos I think I didnt really grip the bike properly, it tilted towards the right and start to topple. Me, holding on to the bike's handles, never thought of letting it go. So I went down with the bike. Stupid! I fell while I was standing on solid ground! Silly me.
Along the way, we saw those really huge rambutan trees and we stopped along the pathway and tried to get some rambutan by throwing huge tree branches or big twigs. My aiming is lousy. Ah Bin's aiming super good. There were many times she managed to make some rambutan dropped down but those that dropped are actually those black colour, dried up ones. Sad! Haha But then again, even if it really dropped, don't think we would wanna eat it. Oh We did bump into Ah Tan's frens in Pulau Ubin. Erm... Oh and we passed by this area. Its just so weird and creepy. Lots of small wooden round blocks placed on ground and the top of the wooden blocks is a square piece of white cloth wrapped around it. Ah Ting or izzit Ah Tan say it is a tombstone thingie. Ew... From far look like miniature toy cartoon ghosts but without eyes. LOL Haha
And we did passed by this are with the red and white tape thing. I thought it is some crime scene thingie. It is only later in the evening when I chatted with Pit Lu that I realised I got it all wrong. Blue and white tape is crime scene but red and white tape means DANGER! And the place that is fence off is where honets are sighted or supposedly to be flying round that area. MY GOSH! And we stop there to rest. Its really lucky of us that we didnt even run into those honets while we are there. Thank God!
Anyway we went to this quarry area and wow its really beautiful! The clouds and sun is fantastic and is really HOT! Guess wad we saw an eagle! Rare sight LOL. And we also saw a rainbow! Can you believe it a rainbow on a bright and sunny day. Wads more it didn't rain at all that day. I thought rainbow appear only after rain. But apparently I thought wrong but its really beautiful. I love the purple flowers there too. They are so pretty but the awful bees were buzzing round that are and you know how I hate insects especially bees and wasps and honets and those that stings!
Oh There was once I nearly ran into Ah Bin. Was riding along the extreme left of this jungle trail and suddenly I heard a loud rustling of leaves and all that just next to me when I passed by that particular area. I nearly jumped... Well I didn't expected to hear anything and I turned just in time to see an iguna I think. Whoa! Big! And it was then that I nearly ran into Ah Bin. The rest they just managed to see its tail but I saw the whole thing! YUCKS! Anyway I also ran over a dead frog by accident. Good thing it wasn't me who kill it. It was already dead and dried up when it got ran over by me. Poor thing! Along the way, there were lots and lots and lots of dogs and some are really so beautiful. But they are all big in size. Too bad I dun get to see any pups running about in Ubin!
It was time to head back and retutn our bikes. We drank coconut juice and ate it except for Ah Ting who didn't like coconut. Love it when its chilled. Really delicious! The shop owner asked Ah Ting if she wanted watermelon since she didn't want the coconut. LOL! Ah Ting hate watermelon even more! The lady shop owner gave us some durains to eat free of charge. YUMMY! Haha We rested happily but the irritating thing would be the stupid bee I think, buzzing round us. Was shooing it away. Luckily it didn't sting any of us. PHEW! Imagine wad would happen if it did.
This is the worst thing that ever happen but then again it is the luckiest thing that ever happen to us! This WOW... Really have to thank God for protecting us even though we are the midst of danger. It is quite a freaking experience to me! We were walking towards the jetty when Ah Tan I think, spotted this swarm of black insects flying above the water surface on the left of the jetty. I bet there is over 200 of them or maybe even 300! We stop and stare cos it is a really puzzling sight and we were really curious. Anyway we continued walking when we realise that somehow the black swarm of insects are flying our way towards the jetty and its getting closer by the minute. We started walking faster and apparently weren't fast enough. We havn't reach the jetty yet, bout 3/4 way thru and it was then that I saw wad the black thing is and the worst part is it is flying round us already! They are either bees or honets! ARGH!!! I hate those creatures and I kinda ran. I am very freaked out, very freaked out. Ah Ting, Ah Tan and Ah Bin just walked faster and they reached the jetty. By then the swarm are like in front of the sheltered area, the boarding area. Luckily they flew towards the right of the jetty and headed to the forest! Thank God they didnt sting me when I kinda run. I have this really bad phobia of insects that sting and insects that make this buzzing sound! I will freaked out and if it is really bad, I start to shiver very badly and break down totally. Come to think of it, it should be honets cos I didn't hear buzzing sound. Good thing they didn't fly towards the boarding area. If they do we all have to jump into the sea! Which will turn out to be a frightening experience since I am afraid of deep waters and though I kinda know how to swim, I dunno how to tread water! This swarm of honets is a rare and awful sight. Thats like the last thing we did when we left Ubin, to stand still under the sheltered area and praying hard that the honets fly away instead of coming at us!
Finally, we are heading back to Singapore after a long and really tiring day! Come to think of it, we really dun have much stamina. When we go uphill, we will keep cycling but getting slower by the minute and then we just stopped hafway up the hill. Ended up having to get down our bikes and pushed our bikes up the slope cos there is no way we have enough energy or strength to cycle up. Wad a laugh! But the ride down the slopes is the SUPER ULTRA fun part! Haha! Love it, I really dun mind going back to Ubin again but the next time, I would like to give the honets a miss, it goes the same for the bees and that iguna.
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*|Confusion
I am looking at the Academic Units sytems, minors, GPE and I just don't unerstand at all! I also check out the examination timetable and I just don't understand why my subjects, FDN110, FDN120, FDN130 and FDN140, are not in the examination timetable. Is it cos these subjects won't have any examintaions or maybe the grades are based on assignments. Frankly speaking, for my these 4 subjects, there won't be any lecture on it, rather it is coursework. Is there why there is no examination. Is it a good thing to have exams or not to have them. WOW If there really is no exams, then I be stress cos every assignment will be grades and counted towards final grade. That be daily stress! Haiz~ Someone really have to explain all these to do cos I just dun understand. I AM CONFUSE! Ok Shall not stress out even before school starts. That is so not good! Someone explain to me please!!! HELP NEEDED!
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*|Shopping with Xin Yi and Kai Xin
Oh I went Tecman today too and finally I found the book "God.com". I searched the whole bookstore twice. I can't believe I miss the book the 1st time round. I found it eventually at the 1st shelf that I search at at Teacman. YEAH! Can start reading it. Still trying to find out which other christian bookstore sell this book "God.net". I cant wait for the newer edition of "Boy meets girl" by Joshua Harris, "My prince will come" by Sheri Rose Shephard and "God's blog" to be out. Really good books! Haha
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*|Choose!
I can't believe I am complaining about my timetable. Yes, 6hrs of coursework is long but at least my lessons are not scattered all over like seeds. At least it is not 1hr here, 1hr there. This makes the slotting in of electives much easier. Wads more my timetable is not as troublesome as my friends, I mean in terms of taking note which week have this tutorial or don't have this tutorial wadsoever. For me, I have each and every lessons from week 1 - 13, from the start to the end, don't have to bother remembering which week it is. I can't believe I was upset about the arranement of my timetable. Come to think of it, its good. 1 subject per day per week is good especially the drawing foundation, FDN110 & FDN120 & FDN130 &FDN140, subjects. I should learn to appreciate this arragement more and be thankful for it.
I am considering whether to take up japanese, french, german or spanish. Erm... lets c... german and spanish not much interest, ok a bit. French, I dun mind, seems really cool, can go france, somemore Yun and Yan taking this elective. Japanese, well I studied that once and it is ok. I won't say I love studying it much. Though it does come in handy in terms of watching japanese anime and shows but I don't really like to study japanese. Maybe I should take up french. Tat be cool and the description of the lessons, well I like it a lot. As for the description of the japanese lessons, well it puts me off. Haha... Oh well, I am still considering it. THINK, THINK, THINK and ASK GOD BOUT IT before make DECISION.
Was browsing this Multnomah Publishers online website and wow lots of christian books! Haha The good thing about some of the books is that they allow u to read a sample of the 1st chapter online. Haha 5 books captured my attention. 3 of them are not published yet while the other 2 are avaliable. Maybe I should put it under my wishlist. Haha... The 2 books I am going to check out and is avaliable is "God.com - Extreme intimacy with an interactive God" and "God.net - The journey beyond belief". The other 3 books that I wanna buy is "God's blog" , "My prince will come" and "Boy meets girl - the newer edition". Haha Really good books. Anyone who wanna borrow them from me can ask me :) Love christian books, if only more of such good books are avaliable in community libraries.
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*|My timetable!
I got my timetable and I look at it and... Then my frens, Yun, Yan and Xiu send me their timetable and I compile them together. It seems that I wont be able to meet them poften for lunch. My timetable is haiz... If I am going to take up French, my timetable will be even worse. My timetable now doesn't give me any breaks for lunch. I can eat only after 230pm or 330pm or 430pm. Haiz~ Here is the subjects I am taking and my timetable:
ADM431 - Western Art History
FDN110 - Foundation Drawing
FDN120 - 2D Design & Colour Worshop I
FDN130 - 3D Design & Volume Workshop I
FDN140 - 4D Design & Time Workshop
HL101 - Introduction to the study of Literature
Monday - (1230-1430) HL101
Tuesday - (830-1430) FDN130, (1530-1630) ADM431
Wednesday - (830-1430) FDN140, (1430-1630) ADM431
Thursday - (830-1430) FDN110, (1430-1530) HL101
Friday - (830-1430) FDN120
Should I join cca? Should I take up French? Will there be time to do homework and take up French and have a cca and on top of that finish the daily homework for the discipleship course. Will I have time? Recently when I am reading the bible during quiet time, I realised most of what I learn is on dealing with stress and whether we have enough trust in God, trust in Him that since He bring us to this difficult stage in life, He will bring us thru it, whether we have enough faith in Him and not run away from our problems but rather hand our problems to God and solve them with His help. It seem like God is testing me to see if I have enough faith in Him. I know with this timetable, I be stressed out. I hardly have time in school to meet my frens during lunch hour. I guess the bible is right, I should have more faith and trust in God. God has shown me what course to take and wads more what I be learning in school actually helps me in using my spiritual gifts even more. Its related. God say He bring me thru it all but He certainly didn't mention it be easy. Haha I should stop complaining and be more thankful that now most of my life is being used meaningfully and not being used by me to slack around at home and watch tv. I should be happy and blessed that I get to study my dream course. All my life I been thinking of studying all these fine arts stuff and look where I am now. I am actually studying it and in a university somemore and this course pops out at just the right time when I have to decide on which course to go. Wads more I managed to enter this course even though I still think my faculty test and video isn't tat good. Its cos of God that I enter and now I guess I should be thankful and be hardworking, for God. Shall stop complaining. Shall do it for God :) Happiness! Without God, I won't have all these. It feels great and right to do this for Him. At least, I can really now put my spiritual gifts to use. Haha :) YEAH!
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*|Animation or Photography???
Slacking at home nowadays. Actually not slacking... Me reading this book "How to write for animation". Wow... Writing is tough tough work. Haha. Went to the library today and I couldn't find any nice story books to read but I ended up with this book "The AVA Guide to Travel Photography". The photos in the book really takes my bredthe away. It is WOW! I wish I am that pro. This really makes me wonder if I should major in photography or animation. Haha... Sometimes when there are not much choices in life, I grumble and now that I have many choices to make, instead of being happy, I grumble cos now I dunno wad to choose. I either major in digital animation, digital photography or digital film-making. Which should I choose??? I wonder if I have 2 majors. The possibly I guess will be zero. Haha... I'm back to square one. I can't decide what I really like. I love animation cos... erm... actually I dunno why too. I wish I get to animation work for animation features. As for photography, I love it cos those really nice photos are really so amazing. U get to see another side of the world and wow it just takes ur breadth away. This world is really amazing. God's creation is really so so so beautiful, cant help being mesmerised in it. Thats what I love about photos. If only I am that skillful in photography. I dun mind travelling round the world, snapping pictures as I go along and then fill my bedroom wall with them. One day, I will travel to places like London. Hope I get to explore this world during my university years before I start working. One day, I get to do it. That day will come I hope! Haha
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*|Down with fever, cough, flu...
Haiz~ Me very ill. Actually I am quite fine but get quite sick every 8hrs cos tats when the medicine I take 8hrs ago, its effects wear off. ARGH! Stupid fever... doesn't seem to go away. Usually I take fever medicine like once or twice and it be gone but so far I have taken the medicine 5 times and my fever is still here. Haiz to add on to it, I just had a new illness... Flu. " How exciting! " Captain ball competition is this Saturaday. Wonder if I can recover by then... erm... not sure. I wanna play! Shall ask God about that after all He knows best! Hee hee
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*|Buried treasures... Lovely names...
Was clearing up trays of rubbish yeaterday andI can't believe there are so many treasures hidden in it. I found my 03S73 class photo in all that rubbish. Just looking at it, I must frankly say I havn't seen most of my classmates since the day we collected our 'A' level certificate. I kinda miss all the times we spend slacking in school and joking and all that. I miss SAJC FOOD! Haha... Now I am stuck to eating lunch from the hawker centers downstairs instead of school cafe. Quite sick of food actually. Havn't been eating much all day! And to add on to that, I have a really bad sore throat. My poor throat... dun even feel like eating anything!
I found this 5R photo of Ophe (beside me), Enoch (extreme left), Yi Cong (extreme right) and me. Taken in the MRT. We had After-Camp-Syndrome. Cos I brought a camera along, we began snapping all sorts of weird photos. Photos of our shoes and weird poses and all that! It was damn funny and to think tat we are doing this in public, acting all wild and crazy. Haha! But we had so much fun as a group! I miss the good old times. Now all of us are so busy... JC, 'A' level, 'O' level, poly, uni... all the busyness. As we grow older, think we should make time for frens even though our life is like a bullet train. Must treasure good old frens!
Also found a very old photo taken in Genting! Oh my gosh... We are all so young! SO CUTE! When we are young, we all are innocent angels... Now we are... Haiz~ LOL To my left is my brother, Cedric. To my right is Jessica, Jasmine, Enoch (Is tat Enoch or Ri Qian... should be Enoch I think. Hey Enoch if u happen to read this entry tell me if that is u ir ur brother ok?). and finally Ri Xin! Haha Cant believe that is me! LOL. I dun really remember what we di in Genting but I knew it is fun and come to think of it, I havn't been to church camp (read carefully... church camp not church chinese youth camp) for like years. That was the last time I been to one. The 1st time was Penang. 2nd was Genting. 3rd is... Yet to find out! Haha
And I found lots of letters written by Ophe, JT, Enoch and all my other angels and frens... oops and mortals as well. Haha I read through some of them. Wow! This clearnig of stuffs is really fruitful! Bring back so so many happy memories. Memories of my church frens and I. My church mates are the best buddies I ever have, both guys and girls!
Anyway, my god-brother is back from China! YEAH! Haha! That silly Ah Xiang banged his head against the floor twice today. How many times must he just lie back and bang his head bfore learning that the floor is not as soft as his bed cot. And the Gerlene... tsk tsk. Climbed the cupboard today and fell down while climbing on Grace jie jie! Aiyo Still dare to cry! Haiz~ Tell her so many times dun climb liao but apparently that didn't get through her head! Haiz~ Kids nowadays. Haha LOL I wonder how my kids will be like in the future if I ever have kids tat is. Hope they are cute and adorable. Haha I still remember Ophe and Ri Xin saying that they wanna name their future daughter, Faith. Haha LOL I havn't think that far but Faith is really a nice name for a girl. Oh Ophe also mentioned that she wanna name her second daughter Mercy. Haha... Hey all the nice names have been taken up. Thee is none left for my future daughter. Haha. I shall think about it later when I have the time. LOL!
I wanna type somemore but I can't think of what else to say. Oh I remember. AH SHAN IS DISCHARGED FROM HOSPITAL! YEAH!!! Get well soon babe! Hopefully she can get well in time to watch us play captainball this coming Saturday! YEAH!
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*|Captain ball ...
Haha Some people have been complaining I didn't update my blog. Actually not some people but my "Ophe-claim-is-fake-angel" angel complain. Haha So now I be good gal and update. LOL... Just read my previous entry. Haha Its the result of a persisting stomachache that I had from afternoon all the way to night. Caused me to be in such a foul foul mood!
Today was quite fun. Had rehearsal for tomorrow Youth Sunday's rehearsal. Just pray hard that there is a microphone somewhere that I can use tomorrow so that I can say my lines! Had captain ball practice today and it was SUPER DUPER FUN! It was a bit tiring but I wasn't as tired as I thought I be after all that running. Haha I think I know why... cos recently I have changed my "climb stairs from ground to 8th floor taking one step at a time" habit to "climb stairs from ground to 8th floor taking 2 steps at a time" habit. Its damn tiring but oh well... Its challenging and fun. BUT WADS NOT FUN IS CARRYING YI XUAN (MY 2 YEAR OLD NIECE) AND CLIMBING THE STAIRS FROM GROUND TO 8TH FLOOR COS BOTH THE LIFTS DIDNT WORK WHEN IT SHOULD! Can die leh! I recommend everyone not to try that. By the time reach 8th floor damn damn damn exhausted! Haha Since I havn't been going swimming, shall do more of my toning up exercise. I wanna go swimming but can't find the time to do so. Erm... Should I go tml by myself??? I havn't been swimming for erm... more than a week or 2! Can't believe it... I use to swim at least once every week but now... haiz~ Aiya Tml can't swim... forgot got captainball practice. Shall postpone that to erm... Monday???
Anyway, during captain ball practice... THAT YI YEW! After like so long didn't see him and instead of being nice... bully me!Got whacked by the ball on my right cheek and once directly at my right eyes by YI YEW! Aiya my good friend somemore. LOL... I am damn unlucky. Haha If tomorrow I end up with a black right eye and a dented right cheek, U know who did it to me... LOL YI YEW! But its fun nonetheless. Havn't been playing captain ball for so so long. I really miss all the fun and the laughter we have during the game. Haha :P
Oh I going to have new window grills and window panes too! My parents might decide to repaint the whole house. Havn't do any painting job for 20 years so u can just imagine how the colour of my walls have changed from a really nice creamy white to more of pale yellowish white! But Haiz~ Its good to repaint but its bad cos I JUST STARTED decoracting my room and if they going to do painting I have to remove everything... books, stuff toys, decorations. Haiz~
Oh I just remember one thing. Ah Tan (Ah Shan actually) got dengue fever. She now in hospital. Those who know her pray to God for speedy recovery. Really hope she gets well soon! Ah Tan TAKE CARE!
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*|No mood...
YEAH! Pei Shi is back in Singapore! Havn't seen her yet. Haiz~ I miss Jing Ting. She only be back in 1 month time and that is quite long actually. Really wonder how she is cos she havn't been replying my email recently. Maybe she busy or sth. Haiz~ I wonder when's the discipleship course. Will it be on Sat afternoon or Sunday afternoon. If Sunday afternoon, Ophe won't be able to go. If Saturday afternoon, Si Hui won't be able to go. By the time, JT comes back to Singapore, she won't be able to attend it. Its a 1 and a half year of committment! TATS A LOT! I feel guilty for wanting it to be on a Sunday afternoon cos then Ophe wont be able to go and JT too. My 2 best buddies! Its so difficult to make a choice.
School starting soon. Haha... Remeber Min told me she wanna be a low profile person. As for me... erm... I don't mind being low profile. Haiz~ Don't feel like blogging. Suddenly don't have to mood to do anything.
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*|Discovering Your Spiritual Gifts!
Went for the "Discovering Your Spiritual Gifts" course today. Ri Xin told us to meet at 830am in church but I went there early and the church is not open yet. Ended up having to wait at the gates. In the end, Ah Bin, Ah Tan, Ah Dian, Ah Ting and Ophe waited at the gates for Xie da ge to come. We decided not to get into the church by crawling under the gates. Haha.
Anyway the course is really good and well God has answered my prayer during the course. Haha Each of us were to think of wad our passion is. Well, mine is Visual Arts/Fine Arts/Drama etc. Think that is really obvious, I have always love Arts. Like the grace and beauty of things. Next we had to do a 130qns spiritual gift assessment and then an observation questionaire by 3 friends. It was after this whole thing that I was able to find out accurately what my spiritual gifts are. My spiritual gifts are craftsmanship and visual communication. Frankly speaking, I never knew these 2 gifts are spiritual gifts... I thought they were more of interests. Never knew spiritual gifts include art stuffs. But come to think of it I am not surprise with being given these 2 gifts.
That is the reason why God let me enter SADM (Svhool of Arts, Design & Media). God wants me to learn skills during my 4 years studies and then use it to do his works and through his works, glorify Him and edify (builds up) others.I still remember how sad and confused I was during the A level period because I just couldn't see a university course that I be interested in. I don't like science and humanities. I am more towards fine arts but during the A level, there was no SADM. Now come to think of it, it is not surprising that SADM got introoduced! I AM SO HAPPY TO ENTER MY COURSE! MY DREAM COURSE! AND I COULDN'T HAVE DONE IT WITHOUT GOD! Haha... Now I can pursue my dreams of studyong Arts. In the past, I get all teary-eyed when I watched dancers sliding across the stage gracefully, even beautiful paintings and all that make me cried cos I see it and I see myself not being able to do Arts, not given an opportunity to study them. If I didnt study science and enter JC, I would have miss this opportunity to study at SADM. Its much easier SADM with an 'A' level certificate then after graduating from poly looking at the number of A level students in my course. God is really great at planning. When all seems hopeless, out pop God with His plan and look where I am now... in SADM. All thanks to God! Haha God knows me best.
My 2nd spiritual gift is Mercy but it is not so prominent. I really don't how mercy can fit into this whole Arts thing. Guess I need to put on my thinking cap. With 3 spiritual gifts, well... It is really a lot. Kinda worried about that cos God will hold me accountable for the gifts. Once he give me the gifts, I have to use it to do His words... God don't give away gifts for fun. He gives it to us so we can use it to do His works. The more gifts we have, the more we have to be responsible for it. Haha That reminds me of the spiderman 2 DVD which I watched yesterday " With great powers come great responsibility". Haha How true can that be... But since God has given me shall use it to do his works.
So now I shall study really hard during the 4 years university course and used what I learn to do his works. YEAH! This makes studying much easier cos I don't study for the sake of studying, I study cos I wanna learn the skills needed. So happy! God has finally answered my prayer on what He wants me to do for Him. YEAH! Glory to God! Haha. Ever since that very Sunday where finally God has help me to understand and let go of my past... From that day onwards, I learnt lots of new stuff. Though I have being a christian for many years, it is only recently that I start to be serious and really want to have a closer relationship with God. I can see how God has changed me. Haha A leopard can't change its spot but its spots do change when God is the one who is doing the change. Haha! Ok time to go study!
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