*|Feel so useless
I hate computers especailly those in my home. I dunno wads wrong with them. Keep giving me problems but the worst part is each time something pops up... some virus or spywares, my family will start arguging. Everyone will start screming and shouting at each other. I wish it stops. I really wish it stops. I wanna fix the problem but I dunno how. I feel so uselses... just wish it stops giving me problems. My family is like in pieces but each day it just becoming worse... more shattered than before. I wish it all stops. I hate it!!! Crying my eyes out dosent help but still my tears fall as I type. I really hate it if only I know wad to do to fix this computer, fix this family.
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*|HAPPY!!!
I havnt been blogging for quite some time... well actually I did but I deleted my entries cos I really dunno wad I am toking. Dun make sense at all. I was kinda down cos like no $ to buy prom stuff and my brother say my new hair style not nice and wads more my weekly allowance is like $10 a week liao. Very little right???
Oh guess wad... On thursday after my last paper. Went out wif Jing Ting. We ate sakae sushi. I so suay... all the food I ordered take a long long time to arrive. After 1/2 an hour... still not ready. Somemore it is fried tou fu and fried hortate... where got go long one. Oh well... but after tat, we went to watch "The Incredibles". It is so so funny! Like the little baby "Jack Jack". He is so adorable. Haha. Really worth watching!!!
Oh anyway today I went shopping. My frens told me my hair is ok. Haiz my brother he win liao. Tell me not nice. Somemore it is $32 hair cut. I cut at orchard cos I wanna change hairstyle and I dun trust those hair saloons located at my house downstairs. The fact tat my hair is long so more ex but it turn out good. Yun and Xiu say it is just the right look for me and tat I should not have long hair anymore. Haha but I love long hair. Ok maybe I shall stick to shoulder length but short hair is a NONONONONONONO thing for me. NO SHORT HAIR!!! Frankly speaking I like the new hair style and well... kinda ex but it is really worth it. Haha I took about a day to decide to cut it. I didnt choose the hair cut... the hair stylists recommended it but they modified the look cos my hair is frizzy so I cant really have short fringe and all tat. Was uncertain at first but now I love it. Hee hee... This is one happy gal.
Oh guess wad!!! I got my prom dress. It is a black halter dress and I absolutely love it. Totally in love with it. Must really thankz Pei Yun for finding it. At first Yun gave me e gray one. It is nice... e cutting and all tat but I look mature and it just kinda dun match but I try the black one... Whoa LOVE IT!!! Haha The first thing tat I thought of when I buy tat dress is Mo Jing Jing and her spokee jewellery (should be spokkee or wadever jewellery... I cant rmb) advertisement. It is kinda a bit like tat one. Haha but I love it all the same. There is a very nice belt to go wif it but I havnt buy it ye. It is $35 plus. Haiz... but I look around ad I cant any other nice belt than tat liao. Think I shall buy it and the reason y I didnt buy is partly cos I wanna check other stores for belts and the other is when they ask me wanna buy belt... They told me if I buy it... I spend more than $80 and I get s free gift which is a stuff toy thingie. I see liao I sian diao so end up didnt buy then Yun and Xiu when they heard the sales gal say tat... They laugh lar. Win liao. Tml I go buy it... it is e last piece somemore. As for heels. I found some I realy like. $19.90 but dun have my size anymore. Haiz. Sad case... mayb I go look round tat shop again. Nice heels at $19.90... tat is totally hard to find lor. Haha ok time to write postcards to frens liao. I am so so excited. Cant believe it. Yesterday I was totally confused and lost cos I cant seemed to find anything for prom but now I super happy. Prom is like only 6 days away. Very fast. Ok shalll go write letters!
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*|2 more papers
YEAH... No more econs, no more chem, no more maths, no more GP. Haha... After this, I shall mug like siao for physics paper 3. I really excited. Haha 'A' level is abpout to be over... YEAH... After tat, it is PLAY TIME. Time to catch up on life. Hee Hee... me now using the old com. Manage to get the internet working on this old com. The reason y my dad buy a new com was cos of the internet, got prob and cant seemed to solve it... Haha buy a new com to sae all the triuble of trying to fix it. After like more than a year... I finally on this com and tried to get the internet working and I did. Yeah!!! Haha cant believe I did tat. Haha. Hee hee... 2 coms with internet but this old com is really really slow. Will be getting my ery own laptop soon. Hee hee... After tat, I use the laptop while my brother the new com and my dad the old com. Dun hae to fight over the com liao. Seriously, there is sth wrong wif this keyboard, something wrong with the letter "V" ... Hav 2 hit the button real hard if not it would not appear at all. LOL.
Erm... I think I did ok for my chem and maths papers. Rather happy wif that. As for my econs... hoping... HOPING I can get at least a D. 1/3 of today's MCQ qns r repeat qns. I did them yesterday but some I forget wad the correct ans is. Haiz... Think my econ will turn out real bad. Oh well... shall focus on phy then. Paper 5 was ok but I did the osciallation qns wrongly. Haiz... as for paper 1, it was relatiely easier compare to my prelim phy. Check thru the ans wif my friends liao... I will lose at the most 10 marks (5 qns wrong) for paper 1. As for paper 2... it is kinda tough. Oh well... Wed paper 3... GOT TO JIA YOU LIAO!!! Haha... I better go study. Enough rest for today. 4 hrs of slacking is enough for me to recharge.
Haiz... Went to check if my application 4 relief teaching was accepted but I just cant seemed to get 2 tat pg. Eerytime I reach tat page, it showed serer down. Hey... I checked tat yesterday and it came out the same thing. Tml morning I shall go check. Haha... I recently started my very own accounts book to record own my expenditure. Dun wanna overspend especially when the long hols break is round the corner. Cant wait to get A leel done an oer with. After tat, I can start clearing all my cupboards of my books and toys and worksheet and start decorating my ery own bedroom. EXCITED haha. Ok shall stop blogging now. It's stuy time. Hee Hee
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*|Still surviving
Finally it is Friday. Sat for five papers this week. I am so so tired. Oh well, now I shall work hard for the remaining paper... Econ paper 1 & 2 and Phy paper 3 & 5. Hee Hee... after A level... my list of things to do (1) Draw church camp T-shirt design (2)Clear room and get ready to convert it into y very own bedroom (3)Prepare for church camp (4)Prepare for Xmas play, rehearsal and all tat (5)Time to change hp and hp plan (6)Get my own laptop (7)Work
Oh toking about work... I am so so excited. Going to work after xmas at fullerton hotel as waitress. Tat be cool anf fun but tiring. Will be working with Hui Ting but that is if I can pass the interview. It is a part time thingie. Hee Hee shall work as relief teacher too in sec sch and pri sch. Think I wanna teach maths (of course), chem (my fav) and PW (haha this is just bull shit all e way)... Hee hee... should I or should I not teach CME??? Haiz... I took more than an hr 2 fill in the aplication form and guess wad OPERATING HRS IS OVER... wad in the world. The application form is like super super super super long. Haz~ fated. Ok so I be working as part time relief cher and waitress (if can pass interview)... Should I look for just 1 more job??? Think I wait till I start working. Haha should I teach PE in pri sch... sounds fun but if students get injured... Oh no I be in trouble. Erm... can someone pls tell me wad I can teach... then again... do I have the patience to teach pri sch kids a not... maybe I teach the upper primary one and lower sec, but chem upper sec. Haha... shall think about it tml since I got to redo the aplication form. Haiz
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*|Karin's 21st bday celebration
My church friends and I aka "The hapz" went out today to celebrate Karin's 21st birthday. MY GOSH, it was a blast. Had lots of fun. Haha Let me see... Where shall I start. Ok We were suppose to meet Karin at Orchard MRT at 715pm today but she last min change the venue to City Hall MRT. It's her 21st birthday yesterday (Thursday). Anyway, she treating us but she wont tell us where she bringing us to except that we get to eat crickets. (Karin... If u wanna bluff us, say sth more real ma... u say eat cricket... we wont believe!!!) But of course, as U know we didnt believe it. Haha Anyway she was late. Tat is when our mini adventure started. We were walking along City Link Mall towards Marin Square. Haha we did a huge bday card for her... It is really huge... evne larger than a drawing block. We made her carried it and wanted her to hold the card in such a way tat everyone can c it. haha but guess wad she did... she cover up the "2" so it ended up reading "happy 1st birthday". She did tat on purpose. Didn't want ppl to know her age. Hee Hee... while on the way there... We did someone tat embarrassed her a lot. Guess wad we did... In the middle of City Link Mall while walking tat is... we suddenly started singing "happy birthday" loudly. Haha many ppl heard tat. Karin tried to hide her face with the card but the thing is... The front of the card is facing everyone. Apparently many ppl now know she is 21!!! LOL... It is really kinda embarrassing but it is fun. Oh well... We a bunch of gals... Wad do u expect. When it comes to birthday... We made sure the birthday gal receive lots and lots of attention!!!
Anyway... karin lose her way... We ended up walking from City Link Mall to marina square then back to suntec city and had to cross this stretch of road tat is like filled of cars. The traffic was heavy and the cars seemed to keep coming and coming... But of course, we managed to cross this road in the end. It is kinda dangerous actually. Haha On the way, we saw a snail on the floor and avoided stepping on it... Y i suddenly mentioned the snail... u will know afterwards once u read on.
After like a 45mins walk, Karin finally found the place. It is at Pan Pacific. Bet it be damn ex. She bring us to this buffet place. Wow... we had fun eating the food. We went for the sushi, salmon, osyters and etc first. it was fantastic and there was a dish where they had snails as part of the decoration or wad it one of themeat too. I didnt eat that so I dun know. Anyway, they were toking about how nice the snail were... Wad an irony... About less than 1/2 an hour ago, they said "Be careful, dun step on the snail" and after tat while at the buffet, they were eating it. LOL... After tat, we went for the hot food. YUMMY... We ate fresh drunken prawn. The chef took it out the big fish tank and cook it on the spot. Haha It was my first time peeling prawns using only fork and knife and it is fun. Haha... I practically peel more than 1/2 of all the prawns tat we ate. Think we took like more than 20 prawns and we kept going back to the chef to ask for more such tat e chef kept asking us if we wanted more and tat he cooked for us anytime. Haha LOL... I ended up displaying the prwan head and their shells on a plate. haha We took photos of it.
It is really delicious. Let me see. We also ate erm... original fried rice, some jack and black pepper thingie which till now I still dunno wad it is even though I ate it. We also ate the potato of the day and the vegetable of the day. There is also dory fillet, salmon and squid which I kept dropping while trying to get them on Karin's plate and she ended up having to pick those dropped pieces of squid from the dory and salmon dish. LOL. The herbal chicken soup is great!!! We ate like a lot. Ri Xin ate the most as usual. Haha, there was hardly any space left on her table for more plates of food. Oh... the desert is FANTASTIC. All the cakes and pudding. IT IS SO SO DELICIOUS. YUMMY!!! We made our own ice cream too. Oh man, I feel like a pig. I really eat like a lot, a lot. Cant blame, the food is super super good.
While we were eating, we took a lot of photos too... Really funny one. All the candid shots and all tat. Karin was our victim. Haha LOL... We took really lots of unglam photos of her. Really funny. We couldn't stop laughing. Bet we the noisiest bunch of ppl there at tat time. Not only tat, while other ppl were like done with their main course and were like now just drinking tea or coffee, we were still eating. Haha Oh I rmb something... Karin is so forgetful. She ordered pasta and told the chef she come back later to collect it. In the end, she kept toking to us so much tat 1/2 an hr later, she rmb it is still there. Haha karin said she was so pai seh. The chef was giving her a weird look if I not wrong and asked her if she wanted it hot. Apparently it must have turned cld after like /2 an hr. Haha on the way back, the prawn cooking chef asked if we still wanted prawns... He had enough of it... I mean how much prawns can 7 gals eat right? Haha The really fun part for today I guess will be the way we celebrated her bday.
We set up the cake and all tat while she settled the bill. Damn funny. Hwee Min pushed the candles all the way into the cake so tat when she removed it using her teeth, she will have a tough time. Haha, we captured every moment of it. It is damn funny. When we is about to blow the candles. We told her to freeze and have a facial expression tat shows tat she is blowing the candles. Guess wad she ended up looking like she is kissing someone. LOL. Damn funny. hui nan made things difficult for her. Like when she is making a wish... Hui nan told her to have a facial expression tat is like childlike and at e same time, shows tat she is really wishing really really hard. LOL... think Karin very poor thing, kena torture by us like siao while all we did was laugh our heads off cos it is really really funny. The photos tells it all. Haha the birthday present tat we gave her were 2 underwears tat we personalised by printing pictures on it. Damn funny... We made her wear it on the spot. Damn obscene. She looks like wonder woman. LOL... We laughed like mad.I mean who wouldn't. It was such a funny sight. karin was super embarrassed. Haha. Just couldn't stop laughing. It was a blast. I cant believe we had so much fun. By the time, we packed up, it was like 10pm plus. Really late so I ended up staying over at Jing Ting's house. Tat si where I am right now. Really tired now. Today was so fun!
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*|HAPPY BIRTHDAY KARIN!!!
Haha Chatting with Karin online. Today is her 21st birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY GAL... oops I mean young lady. Haha LOL... Had a massive "suaning Karin" msn conversation just now. Damn funny. Haha Tat is e bad thing about reaching the age of 21. Haha I am glad I am still the youngest in "The Hapz"... cos no matter wad... wont kena suan tat much cos no matter wad I am younger than all of them! YEAH!!! Haha LOL... evil grin. THE HAPZ RULE... our class going out tml. 715pm at orchard MRT... cant wait. Now study time.
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*|:) Happy!!!
Had maths paper 1 today. At first I was so nervous tat I cant seemed to be able to do the 1st few qns. Haha It is only when I reached round qns 6 that I am able to relax and start doing. The qns behingd are so much easier. Haha... Sth happened during the exam today... Was kinda cold cos of the air con so I reached for my jacket on my lap and guess wad I saw. A THIN BROWN GROSS SPIDER!!! My usual reaction would be to let out a small yelp, throw the jacket and run away. Haha nearly did tat today but managed to keep myself together. I tried to shake the spider off but it wont budge. Ended up using my hands to sweep it off. I USED MY HANDS... by right, I wont even dare to touch it with my hands but tat STUPID SPIDER is really wasting my precious time. At least, I got it on the floor and off my jacket but I didn't dare wear it. At least it is not a big red ant like the one tat freaked me out during econ lecture twice. Haha Wads is it with insects. They love to bug me and tat is wad happen during exam... This morning too while I was at home, a stupid beetle was driving me nuts. Keep flying near me and I keep hearing that irritating buzzing sound in my ear. ARGH!!! HATE INSECTS!!! Can't stand them. Anyway, maths was ok. 2 qns needed us to apply wad we learn in sec sch... b square - 4ac> 0 and for functions, F(x) prime... Hey it is not even in my lecture notes, the last time I seen it was 2 years ago during O level. Oh well, it is over... got to concetrate on the other subjects liao. Can't wait for tml :)
Haha Cant seemed to resist the temptation to stop blogging. Haha... Let me pen down my thoughts!!! Hee hee... was reading Yi Hui's blog just now and I come across this blog entry about swimming. A few saturdays back, Yi huin and I went swimming. Hui Ting didnt come swimming with us cos she sick, having flu. Had a fun time swimming with Yi Hui. We met Roger and Jason there too. The swimming pool at night is super deserted... hardly any ppl. The jacuzzi at night is super beautiful especailly with the orange lights. Erm... super relaxing. Love it a lot. After the A level, I will go to CCK swimming pool at night more often. Haha... Haiz~ I still dun really know how to swim. The only stroke I know is the freestyle which is like super tiring. I lack the stamina and I had a difficult time breathing... Haha but tat is cos I always had a problem deciding when to surface and take a bredthe... and by the time I decide to surface, I am already like so out of breathe... Haha... I'm too fickle-minded. Haha
As for my bedroom... Still am clearing all my books and toys... Realised tat I really have lots of junk but as for all the cards and postcards that I received over these few years... I wil keep it. It is kind of a lot but I cant bear to throw them away... Some are really personal stuff... Shall keep them for memory and when I am old, I will take them out and read all of them and laugh at the silly things that my frens and I hve done. Will treasure them always. Haha... I am thinking of ways to decorate my bedroom. It be fun!!! My very own personalised room... done with my taste and style. Hee Hee... that reminds me of my wishes... Having my bedroom is one of it... ONE WISH DOWN. Haha :)
Haha One of my wish was also to act in a play... Dream about tat since primary sch till now but finally it is fulfilled.... During dec hols, I will soon be Zi Ling. Haha Cant wait for XMAS production rehearsal. This is going to be great. Haha maybe fate has it tat I only get to fulfil my dreams now so tat I appreciate it more. :) After A, I fulfiled all my childhood dreams... Haha will try... Not all are possible. Haha... but after XMAS, I have a feeling that I will feel tat something is missing in my life cos I will no longer be busy with church camp and Xmas production. OHhhhhhhhhhhhhh... Church camp... kinda excited and nervous cos it be my 1st time leading a group. Never had much xperience in tat. Must "rara" the group. Tat be tough!!! Haha YEAH!!! I asked Xin Yi if she like to come for my church camp and she said she see how her schedule is like during the hols. It be cool and fun... We be having talentnight, amazing race and campfire. This year it be the ultimate. THIS ROCKS!!! Haha going to love it!!! Zi Xuan in charge of campfire... wondering wad dance she is going to teach us. Speaking about talent night reminds me the past 2 church camps tat I attended, I was in 2 really cool groups. We had lots of fun doing the skit for talent night... guess tat cos we are rather lame and funny group of people. The past 2 years the skits tat my gp put up is so funny tat thru pout the whole skit, everyoine was laughing including us actors and actress. Really scare about this church camp cos I be leading and skit have to be in CHINESE!!! ARGH!!! haha will try my best. FUN FUN FUN!!! Ultimate coolness!
After A level, I will start exercising... Think I becoming fatter. Havnt been exercising much and keep eating junk food especaily during exam period. All the stress is getting into my head. Haha... Hey did I mention, I will start doing xmas presents soon. Hee Hee... dunno y but I really starting to like tat thing. Hee hee... shall not say wad it is. Ok shall stop toking... Whoa... This is a lot. haha my brother wanna use com. I really havnt been blogging much... Now enjoying myself listening to music by R Kelly and Usher. Love their songs. Dunno y but I just do :) Haha time to study!!!
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*|Chem and maths
YEAH!!! Chem paper 3 is finally over. NO MORE FOOD CHEM!!! It is a sucky topic with lots of stuff to memorise and only worth 20 pathetic marks. Haha my food chem topic is terrible but really glad it is ov. Haha realise that I did all the OR qns for the either, or parts. It is much easier. Hee hee, so happy I know how to do. Hoaz 1st qns I dunno how to do 1(a) Define relative atomic mass... There goes my 1 mark. Haha didnt memorise definitions but the rest I know so quite ok except for food chem of course. Think the worst part of e exam was the stupid air-con. It is like blowing directly at me. This is my 1st time in my entire life tat I wear a jacket even BEFORE the exma start and I only take it off only AFTER the exam. Damn COLD!!! FREEZING! The whole time was trying to keep warm. Even the super warm water in my water bottle has become as cold as the water from the water cooler. SUPER SUPER COLD!!! Jacket a bit no use, still very cold. Was shivering the whole time. Haha but manage to sit thru the whole 2hrs and 45mins. Then haiz~ We are only release more than 20mins after the papers are collected cos some students didnt sit at their assigned desk so e chers had a hard time counting and marking attendance. At that time, I was like damn cold, almost cant tahan it any longer. Chem paper was easy but if wanna get an A, I got a feeling have to score like super super high marks cos it is really easy. Many ppl finds it easy.
Now doing maths TYS. Trying to do all the qns from all topics except stats from N95 onwards. Let me c... I am 1/3 thru... left 1/3 of maths tys tough topics and 1/3 easy topics. Tats good haha LOL. HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!!! Ok shall go study now! :) Haiz sad thing , yesterday Karin cancel her bday celebration cos all of us having exams. Oh well, guess we celebrate another day.
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*|Life
Life is filled with happiness, sadness, tears, smiles, laughter and other emotions but when life gets you down, just be strong about it and keep your head up high and have faith in all things in life. Always remember: God is at your side, always.
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*|GP
Having GP exam this coming Thursday... Haiz~ Finally I realised the mistake tat I have been making whole year round when I am writing essay. Now I know how impt planning is, have to really look at the key words and start brainstorming from there. Not only tat, have to find out wad the qns is implying about the current situation. Not only tat, I realised tat I always forget to explain my view... Tats y I keep getting borderline passes. Oh well... Less than 2 days to brush up on GP.... ARGH!!! Haha really scare now... especailly when I dun really have much content... shall start reading articles liao. Haiz~
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*|See with your heart
Happy 18th birthday Wee Pin! Today, Hui Ting, Wee Pin, Wei Da, Tin Song, Jonathan and I, we went to JP's Fish & Co to celebrate Wee Pin's bday. It was fun but initially I was a bit stonning... partly cos I dun really know wad they toking about and then I was wondering about GP consultation and lesson tml. I havn't done anything yet... better start writing my essay outlines. Haiz~
Watched "The Passion Of The Christ" this afternoon. Was super sad to see the soldiers mock Jesus and treatiing him in a cruel manner. Sometimes I wondering how can they have the heart to do such a thing. Even at the very last moment, Jesus asked God to forgive the high priest and the people as they dunnno wad they are doing. He asked God to forgive them... the people who was super cruel to him. Instead of revenge, He asked God to forgive them. Really can see how much Jesus loves us... He was willing to die on the cross for our sins. Was touched and really upset by the way the people treated him especially the soldiers. It was for this reason tat I believe in God. It was sth tat happened in the past tat led me to believe in Him. Maybe some may be wondering how I know it is real... tat God really exists. I dun really know how 2 answer this qns... All I know tat once I experienced it, I knew straight away tat it is God. Can feel His love and comfort. I left Him once but when I realised my mistake... can just feel God waiting for me and welcoming me with open arms. Can feel tat He is glad tat I returned and forgive me for wad I did. I will never trade God's love for anything else in the world. It is the best thing in the world and from tat day on, I believe in Him. Sometimes I really wanna shared this God tat I know with my friends but I just dunno how to start. Everytime when I think of the xmas production tat my church frens are going to put up... I keep thinking wad if this is the only chance tat my frens have in hearing the gospel and wad if they choose not to believe it. I guess it is hard to believe in sth we cannot see... sth we cannot see with our eyes but we can see it with our hearts. No matter wad, I will always believe in God. He helped me thru all my ups and downs and never once did He leave me to fend off for myself. He is always there and I'm glad. Thank U GOD!
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