*|Christmas...
Christmas is over and I just feel that the meaning of christmas is lost. Just take a look at Orchard Road on christmas eve. Its like people mostly teenagers are using christmas as an excuse to create havoc. Really what is the benefit in spraying others (AND THE WORST THINGS IS THAT THE OTHERS ARE STRANGERS) with those foam and ribbon stuff. What good comes out of those actions? I mean if it is a birthday party and everyone knows everyone then it is ok to go about having a bit of fun spraying one another but spraying at strangers or worst, little kids??? What has that got to do with christmas?
I really miss the good old days where you see kids with their families hanging round orchard eating and luaghing and snapping photos. See those kids being fascinated by Santa and all those but look at today... Kids really are less innocent and child-like. Its like they grow up too fast but their maturity level is still low. On christmas eve, we see fights occuring outside cineliesure, people getting high on drugs at MRT stations, crowd pushing and shoving, kids wailing... Where are all those geunine smiles and laughter? Do families no longer get together to celebrate the birth of Jesus? Is all spraying and Orchard and getting into trouble all people or rather teenagers think about when the word christmas is mentioned? Is that what we want instilled in our kid's minds about christmas?
I am a teenager and I dun understand why other teenagers of my age act so immature. I am appalled and totally disgusted by their behaviour. It's just like seeing the bad side of humankind. When I think of how Jesus will feel when he look down Orchard Road on xmas eve. All I can think of is the hurt and pain. Just imagine seeing all these chaos and havoc on ur special day, the day you were born, the day you came down as a human to walk your life and then scarcifice yourself for their sins. And the fact that man sin every minute is bad enough but on such a special day, we should all try even harder to try not to sin but rather spend time in praise and worship but of course it didnt happen that way. Its really disappointing, it really is.
Sigh... I just feel sad. The meaning of christmas is lost admist all that chaos. What's the world becoming to? It's getting worse every second. Now I know why God want us to be like a light to the world. It;s so that we can bring people back to Jesus, back to God. That's where we belong. We belong to God and one day, we be in heaven wif Jesus, God and the Holy Spirit and we celebrate together as one happy family. Though no one except God knows when that day is but we can be sure that day will come. It will come.
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*|GOD knows best!!!
I got back all my results today and I must say it is a miracle. I expected worse but WOW... And I really have to thank God and my church friends. God help bring me through all that emotional and spiritual and physical tiredness. God cares about me and He goves me my superb church friends, they really see me through it and I am really grateful. I know my gardes are not that great when compared to my classmates... That I must admit but after all that struggling, to get the grades that I gotten is amazing. God is really wonderful. I must work harder next semester for God. He give me this gift, I must learn to use it well. Must work hard. Till now, I am super delighted that I got into ADM. Waiting is tough but the fruits if patience is just so awesome. God really knows best. He really do.
I am kinda in a dilemna now regarding what GER to choose. It is either Japanese or Aesthetic and Creative Techniques in the Moving Images (Television/Video). It keeps bothering me thw whole day. How silly of me to hand this problem to Him earlier... Now that I pray about it, I just feel so at peace and that peace comes from God. I will definitely have the answer by this Wednesday morning. The only reason it is so important to me is because I dun wanna overload myself. I have discipleship course next year along with the preparation for mission all to take place during sem 2. I wanna make time for it. These 2 things are important to me. Very important. Next semester will be tough but it be fun and exciting, not because of what stuff I be learning in school, but the stuff that I be learning about my walk with God.
Its kinda late now and I got home from my xmas skit preparation. Sometimes I like it, sometimes I don't. Like cos its acting, don't like cos the stage directions are so messy and there are some parts that are just so difficult to act out. I have to remember to be as aggressive as possible. Erm... oh well, I deal with that tomorrow when I practice acting it out at home. YIPEE! Friday going for JT's CF event at Suntec. There be a small talk about Narnia and then the screening of the movie itself. Thinking of who else to ask... I have asked Soh Xin Yi and yeah!!! she is coming along with her sis and her sis's bf. Who else should I ask? Actually partly the reason I find it tough to ask my other frens is that they from different groups, I cant possibly talk to one fren and ignore the other. Erm... Let God decide... Afterall, if it is really meant to be, He will bring my fren to me :D He konws best!!!
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*|I wish...
ARGH!!! I had it with msn. I wasted so much time trying to sign in and I can't understand why there is a problem. I can signed in perfectly well with my old email address but my new one. It's giving me problems and now that I am finally in, my status on other's msn screen is OFFLINE!!! I AM ONLINE!!! STUPID MSN PROBLEM!!! ONLINE!!! Haiz~ I hate computers. They are so not flexible. Human brains are still the best. After all they are God's creations. Nothing but the best! As for computers, they are the worst of all, the one that always give people stress. Haha
Anyway, enough about computers, it's giving me a bad headache. Anyway I did quite a bit of shopping just now. Buy some christmas presents for Ah Xiang, Yi Xuan, Joshua and Jonathan. And a pair of shoes for myself partially dues to the fact that my scandals that I am still wearing now are going to die out on me. As for my white charles and keith shoes... it's time for a revamp! (I never seem to get down to doing it though... better start tml)
The next thing I shall do tml is erm... watch harry potter and start doing xmas presents. SO FAST!!! NEXT WEEK IS CHALET LIAO! YEAH! A break away from computers and all electronic devices... well not all. But I really can't wait to breathe some fresh air and do a bit of cycling and stuff like that. I really miss being able to exercise, jump about and I really miss the sea. I wish I am now at the sea sitting n the rocks, feeling the wind blowing in my hair, smelling the saltiness of the air, gazing at the stars hanging above and feeling at peace with the things around me. I can just imagine it all in my mind but I prefer being there but somehow I think the image I have in my mind will be much more perfect than the beaches in Singapore. One day, I go to the beach that I have in my mind, one day I be there. I just have to find it.
Haha It's really ironic that I wanna be near the sea yet at the same time, I fear the open waters. I am afraid of falling into the deep ocean and drown out there. There are so many places I wanna go, so many things I wanna do, so many things I wanna learn but the thing is will I ever we able to do them. Is that what God wants me to do. I wanna be an animator, doing feature animations, but in Singapore... There just isn't any such jobs. Disney isn't in Singapore. I want my work to impact the lives of the young. I want them to be how we children are in the past. Carefree, obident. I want the world to be a better place. Happy families, children laughing and smiling, all that joy, peace and laughter but now in this world, it seem to vanish. People become so busy and caught up with their work that they become so stressed up. Children no longer as innocent as they are, now they talked back and live in the computer age, not that it isn't good but it seem to be an overdose of it. At parks, there aren't as many children now. Most are at home studying away, longer school hours etc... Wad is becoming of this world... I wish I can be as great as Walt Disney one day, able to help bring the family together. One way is by watching his shows together. When was the last time my whole family is together to watch tv? That seems to be many years back when I am in primary sch. We no longer watch movies together, even eating meals together. I miss the good old days. No xmas tree, no log cakes etc. All gone. I wish to bring it back. I really it will all come back. I know it will one day.
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