*|Xmas eve at Sarah's house
Going to update on certain stuff, on christmas eve I was with my church friends at Sarah' shouse and we played monopoly disney's edition. It was the best monopoly game I ever played. Haha... There were lots of shouting and bargaining and people wishing that they all jail instead. It was madness. You should have see the speed at which cottages are built or even better, at one go, 4 castles are built in a row. A step on just one of that space cost $950, enough to make anyone go bankrupt. Lol At that time, there was 7 of us playing and I was nicknamed the ultimated spoiler of the game becuase I happened to have cards of all different colours and my friends they needed those cards to complete their sets before they can start building. Haha... In the end, I managed to bargain for free parking even with cottage and hotel. And this start the whole "let's be allies." LOL in the end, we were all just split into 6 groups and I was being paid $6000 for a blue card... think it should be the 101 dalmations one. That is one scary monopoly game. After the allies thing started we ended the game because it is just too impossible to continue. It was the best "worst" monopoly game that I ever played. That was pretty much I did there at Sarah's house. Love my church friends. They are really good at making ordinary games super fun! Thay are also good at making ordinary days super exciting! Hee :D
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*|Random thoughts
It's raining again. I realised that nowadays I watched so many movies especially each time when I go out with my school friends. In the past I hardly watched movies and now I watched a whole range of them... animation, comdedy, romance, action-packed, thriller, arty farty ones too. Money is going down the drain very very quickly. My friends like Ellen, Jit, Jia Hui etc... heard them say that each time they watched a show they tend to focus on different stuff like how shots are composed, lighting etc because they have become so used to doing that that sometimes they just can't watch a movie without hinking about all that. Is it just me or am I not a very art person, to me watching movie is really fun. Things like shots, lighting, camera angle never once occured in my mind. I am always completely swept away by the story. Usually at the end of the show when everyone will start becoming analytical and discuss stuff about it, I am always standing at one corner thinking how in the world do they watch and remember things like shots and stuffs.
Anyway yesterday Zi Xuan and I had a long conversation on MSN. I really pray that God will continue to guide us and keep us far away from temptations and if we were to ever come face to face with one, the first we have to do is pray and run far far far from it, as far as possible. To try to take it on will be a dumb move. I want to put my trust in God in this matter. I think it's really time I stop bothering about it, wasted too much time and energy worrying about such things. Guess I should hand it all to God, He reveal when the time is right and at least I can now put all my focus on doing God's work. Afterall God is more important than all that. Hee... Will uphold you in prayer, Zi Xuan.
JING TING is BACK. So happy! Do really miss her a lot!!! Nothing much different about her. Just that she has lose weight. Haha Jing Ting if you aare reading this, I bet you be happy to see me admit that. LOL This totally reminds me of how we are all so convinced that Ri Xin will grow fat when she goes Taipei because of all the food there and she loves food except pork and anything that is very "gua". Haha, I think the more we tell Ri Xin she get fat, the more determined she be in proving us wrong then at least we have help her stay slim because each time she is about to eat something fattening, she think of us suaning her. LOL. Will miss you, Ri Xin.
Sigh... Just write from Zi Xuan's blog that her family be moving to Malaysia. OH NO!
She is going to be away for 4 years and her family will no longer be in Sinagpore. Got a feeling I will get to see her less and less. Sigh...
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*|Friends...
I write through Sarah's blog and it had me thinking of my life. I am so glad that my past 20 years. God has always been there for me so did my friends especially my church frens. My church buddies may not know this but it was them that lead me to God. It was Zi Xuan who made me opened up and got me to chare my personal stuff with her. Friends like Hui Nan, Si Xiu, Ri Xin and many many others... They let God's light shine through them and I saw how God work in their life and bless them. At that point of time, I really wanted that type of life too. I wanted God to be in my life as like He was in theirs and because of them, they led me to God and helped me all closer to Him. Really must thank you all for all your support and encouragement. You guys were the one who stood beside me through my ups and downs. LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH! Your all were the best group of friends I ever have and I prayed that we will always be together and that we will grow closer to one another and God each and every day. And even as some of us start grduating from school and start entering the workforce, I prayed that we will always stay in contact. You guys are the best brothers and sisters that God has ever blessed me with.
Last of all, I really have to thank God. Thank God for being there for me. Thank God for putting my friends in my life. Without God, I wouldn't be who I am today. God has given me 2 good presents. The first is Jesus! and the second is my family and friends!
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*|JT IS BACK!
SO HAPPY! JING TING WILL BE BACK IN SINGAPORE TODAY! WOO HOO! Everyone (my church friends) is here well except for Bao Juan. But I am still very happy and CHRISTMAS IS COMING! Super excited... Get to see everyone again. Favourite time of the year... I don't care about presents wadsoever, I just my friends. Haha...This year 2006 is almost over soon and I must say I really enjoy this year no matter how stressful things are. I can't wait for next year. I got a feeling that next year things will be even better than before. I have some things in mind nd I do pray that somehow or another, I am able to go for it next year. HAPPINESS!
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*|Miss ya
It has been raining all day since morning. But I don't really mind that. Love the sound of rain and the coolness of the air. Making christmas gifts for my friends and writing christmas cards. I have been thinking about life and friends and I just can't help feeling sad thinking that one day I just might have to say goodbye to my friends. Guess that will happen 2 and a half years later when I graduate from ADM. I will miss my friends and school life and my prof and everything that I come to love at ADM. Now as I see Pei Shi they all working, I starting to see less of them in the sense that they can't come for church camp and stuff anymore cos of work unless it's their day off or something like that. Just wish this christmas, everyone of my church friend will go to church and for once be back as one whole group again. Really miss them. Sigh... Jing Ting is still in canada, wonder how she is. As for Ri Xin and Zi Xuan, they be leaving Singapore next year in Feb. Rin XIn, levaing for 5mths cos of exchange programme. Zi Xuan for 4 years cos she be studying social work there. She said she might worked there after graduating after all what she is studying is Australia's social work system and not Singapore's. I will miss her very much if she doesn't come back to Singpore to stay anymore. As for Bao Juan, she is in UK I think, dunno when she be bacjk in Singapore. She didn't say, maybe 2 years later, really hope she comes back to Singapore during Chinese new year or something. I miss her too! Really have to treasure my friends while we are all still here in Singapore. MISS YOU ALL! COME BACK TO SINGAPORE SOON!
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*|Camp
Ok... The previous camp entry is too much on the negative side. Sorry... lacking sleep and it affected my mood a lot. I feel asleep while doing my stuff just now. Feeling so much better now. I enjoy the camp very much even though sometimes it screwed up a little here and there. Was in MILO group and very glad to have known the little ones. Even though they can be very naughty sometimes but they are still cute little kids. It is not easy running a children camp and really I must say Ah Min they all did a really good job. The kids enjoy it a lot and they asked if next year there will be a children camp. haha... of course there will be. Cos we are doing a 3 year children camp series thing. I do really hope that we are able to do it. It is getting tougher cos most of us are university students and once we graduate from school, we have to work and it be difficult to attend camp. Simply cos we are working. Really must treasure our youth before it is gone.
Must really thank God for bringing all of us through this camp. Can see that the kids start to question and think about their relationship with God and can really tell the bond between them is stronger now and at least now there is a bond between us and them. Really pray that God will continue to guide us in guiding the little ones. Still thinking whether I should go Ubin with my friends or go church this Sunday or go church then go Ubin. I really feel like going church. Tml I ask my friends. Think I probably go church then Ubin.
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*|enjoy? maybe not
Back from church children's camp. I think I was really bad during the camp and I am really lousy in a lot of things. I don't feel like leading praise and worship session anymore because no matter how many times I tried, it is always a failure. Like during the camp one, when I lead not many kids sang anyway, not getting any response and I kinda like gave up half way during the session. I just wanted then was to get it done and over with. I know I should not be like that but I just could not help it but feel thata I have once more failed again.
And I guess it kinda go the same for the sharing session. I shared and I don't, maybe it is because I didn't share enough or either that I am really not good at it. There was this awkward silence in my group and I tried calling Xin Min over but then I saw her being very focused sharing with her group that I didn't want her to come over and help. I really feel like I have let God down and let this opportunity come to waste. Am I really that bad at all this. I really really tried my best or maybe I just didn't tried enough. I don't know.
And I guess this kinda affected me for the whole camp. Was not very enthu about much of the camp and well I was quite hot-tempered. I can't stand the kids. Sometimes they just don't know when to behave and I just started shouting at them, well... not really shouted... kinda talked to them in an angry tone or wadever. I dunno, maybe I am not cut out for this. Consider if I should continue helping out in church children's camp, maybe not next year, maybe as a camper or maybe just not at all. Afterall, I don't think I really did much during the camp. I don't seem to have really helped at all. Instead I felt that I have let more people down and I did especially God.
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*|sleep
Just blogging a short entry. Feeling really really tired. I need rest desperately. Feeling very bad for handing in 2 hong bao designs when I am supposed to hand in four. But itsike 3am and if I continue doing, I don't have o bother going to sleep. Whats more my brain is functioning at this really slow rate and my creative juices are long gone. And I have yet to pack my bag for my camp later and have to wake up at 745am and I have yet to clear away the paints and stuffs which I used o do the posters from my table. I really want to sleep. I can't seem to function at all. My body is really aching and my eyes are really red. And I am so tired that i can even dream up of a vivid dream in my 15 mins of nap which I just have to take if not I really can just drop dead liao. Dreaming equals to not sleeping well. ARGH... wadever... not in good mood. want sleep. need sleep.
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*|WOW!
I know I havn't been blogging recently. That is because I had so many things to do and well... I am really really tired. Dun wanna talk about that. Have been looking at the moon recently and it is beautiful! It's light and roundness. Kinda like the only light among the dark sky besides the star. Really it's a beautiful sight. I wish there is a place in Singapore that is totally no man made features and I wish I am able to just lie down on the grass and just look at the moon all night. I wanna watch the sky change colour from pitch black to rich warm colours of gold, purple and pink. Havn't done that for a long time. The last time I did that was when I stayed overnight in school. Each morning if I do stayed overnight, I will climbed up ADM slope by myself at 630am and just watch the sky as it changes colour. It's amazing, the things you can see is WOW! The clouds are ever changing... Sometimes I see an island, sometimes mountain ranges, sometimes a valley or even a river leading into the distance. Really miss those days. Can't blog anymore liao... back to work on camp booklet. ARGH!
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*|NEED SLEEP
Now it's super late. Have to wake up early to go church. The weird thing is that each time I have to wake up early, I will always end up sleeping late. I really have to wake up at 630am tomorrow if I wanna reach church in time at 830am... ok it's 2 hrs, haf hr to get ready, one and a haf to travel. Sigh... but oh well. Just when I wanted to sleep just now, I thought of a story and well, I hoped I be able to turn it into a good piece of animation for my friends for christmas present but one big problem, I dunno how to compose music. Sigh... Have to use copyright music again. Does anyone know of any royalty music that I can download and use for my mini project?
ARGH! Headache, better go sleep soon but before that, need to work on the template for camp booklet and I am so screwed have not memorise lyrics for tomorrow. Sigh... This is a weird entry. A perfect example of what happen when you don't go to sleep when you are suppose to. haha... need sleep!!! Ad I realy need to change my blog image
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*|exams over
Yeah! I am finally home... well sort of. I still have to go back school these few days to clear up my stuff in stop motion room. Well, I brought home a lot a lot of stuff and now I have one big problem. I need more room space. Really glad the holiday is here. Going to start brushing up my maya skills. Time to hit the books and play around with the programme and have to start doing research for Hannes project. Well, actually I have started it liao. Just need to get a notebook to jot down all my research and stuff. This holiday I wanna work on a lot of stuff but I don't think I got mch time. Sigh... was practicing piano just now and it's killing me!!! I better start practicing again, my piano cher so going to slaughter me tml. BACK TO PIANO!!! YIPEE NO MORE EXAMS!!!
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