*|Sushi
Haha I almost forget about it till I chat with Ting Song just now... Haha Yesterday (Friday), I went with Pei Yun, Bing Hong and Sandra to sakae sushi at Westmall eat buffet. My 1st time eating sakae buffet. Haha... cant blame I dun have a craving for sushi but anyway... WOW the food was grea. We ate form 3pm all the way to 6pm. Damn nice, haha I enjoy myself there, trying out lots of different food, YUMMY!!! Haha I bet we ate more than 30 plates... confirmed got more that tat liao. Wow... really a lot lor... We just kept eating and eating. I love buffet. Remember when I was young, my god parents will bring us (us as in my brother and I) to high teas and buffet after every major exam like mid terms and finals. Haha tried lots of food, a variety of them. It is reall great to enjoy once in a while and be caught up in the hotel's decoration and atmosphere and the food served too. Love 2 explore hotels... They have very interesting art pieces and sometimes lovely toilets LOL!!! But recently, my appetide changed, I cant eat as much as I can when I was much younger. I guess it is mostly due to the fact of my irregular eating habits. Nowadays when I dun feel like eating, I wont eat even if it means all I had eaten all day is just one slice of bread. Sometimes I skip meals just for tat extra dollar or so... Dun think I am doing the right thing but at a time like this when my parent going to spend lots of $ on my bedroom and laptop, I think it is worth it. Every cent counts! Haha oh well... should reduce my expenditure which I did... Now all I ever spend on is food and printing notes and impt stuff or useful materials for my 'A' level. Haiz... Haha sakae sushi, tat reminds me of sth else. Haha LOL... Anyway, really had lots of fun tat way eating sushi but I was super full at the end of it all. Super full. Haha
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*|Changes
These few days I havn't been studying much... was slacking actually. Haha ended up clearing my cupboards... passing all my books and stuff toys and dolls (yes, I still have them in the cupboard after like dunno how many years) to my god niece and nephews. Haha They are super happy... Their book shelves dun have any more space liao and the no of toys they have is increasing each day. Haha Even the store room is not enough for all of it... It is seriously a lot, a lot. Whoa, my brother and I really got a lot of stuff. Clearing them takes time. Haha But I am keeping some stuff though. Haha like my doll from Holland or was it France and my dragonball chun li pencil holder... haha dunno y i wanna keep tat... LOL. Cant wait for my very own bedroom. Will change the whole room, well not all, those old cupboard still gotta remain there... haiz... anyway shall change the whole room till it suits my taste and style. Yeah... be putting the keyboard in my room and out goes the photocopy machine into the living room. Haha I wont be getting a new bed though... Be shifting the double bunk bed from my brother's room to my room. He be getting a new one. Not tat I care. Hey but super not fair... How come he can get a new table while I'm not getting one. HELLO??? Where do I do my work at... where to put my laptop??? If my parents not paying for it... Hee hee I go Ikea buy one myself... not tat I mind. YIPEE!!!
Oh I almost forgot to mention... I be getting my own laptop... (1) I need it when I go university (2) I cant stand the com anymore... dunno wad my brother downloading, got so many spyware and junks and dunno wad thing tat is called... I getting rid of it till I cant stand it anymore. Giving up on this com... Once I get my laptop, I dun care wad my brother do to this com liao. Haha As for my laptop, it be top security, password everywhere... Hee hee like tat my brother wont get 2 use it. A bit evil but I get super frustrated with e com many times but my brother dun seemed to care. Of course lor... cos I am the one trying to fix e problem not him. I had enough. Dun wanna always get upset or angry and irritated when e com is not functioning properly. I mean if with more than 4 anti-spyware programmes and Macfee and all tat, I still got virus in my com. Wads more, I keep having this browser spyware which I cant seemed to get rid of even after I used hijackthis to delete it. Damn irritating, it keeps directing me to some nonsense web engine. It also keeps changing the browser default home page every 15 secs but fail to do so cos I got Macfee Privacy Service and I keep having ti reject the change. But itis still irritating especailly when Macfee alert me of it every 15 sec. Oh well... at least it is better than how it was in the past and tat is sth 2 be happy about. LOL
Oh I wanna change my hp too to one with radio and camera. Actually I narrow down was I wan to Nokia 6220, Nokia 6230 or Nokia 7250i. Wanna trade in my old Nokia 8250, it is a super old model... only worth $50 now... Haiz~ dunno wad model I should change to leh... 6220 and 6230 is ex lor but 7250i should be relatively cheaper. Dun wan my parents to pay so much for it after all tat buying of furniture for my bedroom and my laptop. Will change my plan and pay for it once I start working. Hee hee... so much changes going on but I willingly accept them, who wouldn't? Haha
Anyway, Did I mention I got omelet from Hui Ting, Hung Jin, Kiwi and Wee Pin for my bday. Omelet is damn cute. Was very shocked when I saw it... I thought this ty pig will be a small one. How wrong I am... it is almost the langth of an A4 size paper. It is tat big but it is DAMN CUTE. So adorable. Love it... hug it to sleep every night liao. Wonder y I luv this pig in the 1st place... Haha. Thankz a lot, Ting and Wee Pin, u noth had to go all e way 2 PS get it 4 me. Thankz!!! Haha Did I say I also got this erm... wad is it called I dunno from Wei Da. Anyway it flashes when my HP is near it everytime I receive an sms or a phone call... but it is going a bit haywire... Haha suppose to flash for bout a few secs but instead it fashes for hours. The longest it has ever flashed is about 6hrs. LOL and tat silly brother of mine keep on wanting to make it flash more. Good thing I keep it where he cant touch it. But it is really fun to watch it flash at night but not so when I am trying to sleep and it is still flashing away.LOL... Haha got to go study liao. Whoa I really typed a lot. Haha :)
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*|Leak leak leak
Chem practical is over but I am not really glad about it. Before the exam, my frens have been telling me rumours about wad they think might come out for e practical. One of my fren told me tat her fren's fren's fren's etc...( it just goes on and on) say tat double indicator, the kinetics reaction on the effect of conc on rate of reaction (by initial rate mtd... e one with the visibility of the cross) and tat for QA, there will be Mn 2+. I didnt believe it and mean it is so specific... who in the world can predict to such accuracy. I just studied all... After all rumours are rumours and not the truth always. Guess wad... I had a shock when I open the 'A' level chem practical qns paper. All the expt is exactly wad my fren had told me... word for word... same reagent, same procedure ... EVERYTHING. Tat is impossible lor... The only thing I can conclude is some other sch teachers must have leak out e qns. This is so unfair. Wads the point of having an exam when many ppl know wad e qns is beforehand. I rather fail the paper and know tat I have done my best rather then pass the paper knowing tat it is because I cheated. For this practical... I'm just glad tat I studied the best tat I could and at least I know it will be much better than my prelims. Even if I have not heard the rumour, Iwill still write the same ans tat I have written on my script and tat is cos I did study. Really, this is so unfair ... but then again, when have things ever being fair especially in this world? Sometimes I really wonder wad this world is becoming to... Its just 1 big mess. My sch chem teachers may make a report tat some1 leak out e qns. I wonder if they will and if they do I wonder how MOE and Cambridge will react to it.... Haiz~ so unfair... I study like mad 4 it and those who leak out the qns, all they have to do is just study tat TINY LITTLE bit to pass it with flying colours. So UNFAIR!!!
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*|Yesterday :)
Haha Didn't blog much yesterday cos I ate too much cake till I had a fever. Went to sleep and now I'm feeling so much much better. Haha LOL... Yesterday morning, I rmb waking up and spending about 30mins clearing my inbox and replying all my frens to thank them 4 rmbing my bday and wishing them good luck for the phy practical or the upcoming A level. Haha... Actually I didnt eat breakfast then but decide to give myself a small treat, a hashbrown from BB mac which I buy on my way 2 sch. Was really happy in e morning... Think my mood helped me a lot during practical cos I was too happy to bother about being nervous. My qns 2 my table wrong... oh well... Guess 2 marks gone. Haha but oh well... shall work harder for the rest of the other papers :)
After tat, we went to Fish & Co... Yan couldn't come :( Pit Lu was waiting for us ther... she dun take physics. Haha I ate Fish and chips, its really nice... YUMMY but the serving was rather large... Oh They bought cae too. Haha LOL... 4 person to one cake. Each of us had to eat a quarter of it... wads worse is Fish & Co... They give bday cake to bday gal... I had to cake to finish... one large piece of brownie-like cake hot from the oven with one large scoop of ice cream on top with a chery (erm... is the spelling correct? cherry cerry erm...) from Fish and Co and another slice of chocolate cake from my frens. Whoa, the size of both cake amounts to half the size of e chocolate cake tat Pit Lu buy lor... Wow... u gals win liao... force me to eat all. Somemore wont let me off if I dun finish it but of course in the end... I couldn't finish it. Really too full liao. LOL... THANKZ PEI YUN, PIT LU and XIU JING for the lovely bday celebration. Haha because of all e food u made me eat, I ended up not eating dinner.
Haha... After tat had to rush back to BB Mac to meet Hui Ting they all... Haha I was dreading the sight of the cake and true enough I saw one. WOW... I so full liao lor. How to eat it!!! Haha it was a really nice cake with a bear on it and then they start putting the candles. MY GOSH... tat Hui Ting crazy liao... 18 small candles...the poor bear is like totally surrounded by a wall of fire... Haha LOL... They actually didnt want me to use my hands to take out the candle but in the end, I manage to get my way HAHA... I always do!!! HAHA LOL... Phew, Ting say when she celebrate her bday, they made her take out 18 small candles without hands and then they smash her face into the cae. Phew I am lucky... Haha... THANKZ HUI TING, KIWI, YI HUI, WEI DA & WEE PIN for the celebration cum presents too. Haha Ting today go collect omelet from taka. LOL :) Haha... I didnt eat the cake then till they played zhong ji mi ma... Haha I havnt been playing tat for quite some time liao. Haha always played it with Jing Ting, my brother, Yi Cong and sometimes Yi Yew when we stay over at their house and when we sneak out at midnight for supper. Still rmb how disgusting all the mixed drinks and food are... playing zhong ji mi ma with them can die... Haha but it is really really fun, I missed tat. Back to the present... Actually I dun hav to eat any cake one then I kena... Haiz Wei Da picked a no then it was Yi Hui's turn... she say 70 plus and then the range was 1-70 plus then my turn... I said 28 and I kena... I'm like e 2nd person then kena liao... Wad E... Haha but the next round I had my sweet revenge... Wei Da kena the no 50 which is wad I pick. Haha LOL... That Wee Pin... pick 23 and I kena again... so suay even though he give hint... I STILL KENA!!! WAAHHHHHHH!!! So full liao how to eat cake... but I didnt have my sweet revenge... Wee Pin was off the hook... He win liao lor. Haha so sorry, I didnt eat much of the cake cos I really cant eat anymore liao but THANKZ anyway.
Haha... by the time I went home and all tat, I wasn't in my happy mood anymore... feeling sick. Keep wanting to puke and in thelater part of the evening, I had fever. Haiz~ suay but oh well, I'm feeling better now so tats alright :) I dun want to eat any cakes... no more... enough is enough. Haha, me shall go study 4 chem practical now.
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*|ENOUGH IS ENOUGH...
Had a fun time celebrating my bday wif my frens though the most torturous part was being forced to eat so much cake. I never eaten so much cake in my life... quite sick of it already. Now having a hard time digesting everything... a bit no longer in the happy mood but in the I feel like vomiting mood. But thanks Pit Lu, Xiu Jing and Pei Yun... had a great time at Fish and Co with u all ... sad thing... Yan cant come. Thankz Hui Ting, Yi Hui, Kiwi, Wei Da and Wee Pin... sorry to make u all wait 4 me 4 so long. 18 candles... u all r nuts. Thankz a lot... oops kinda no mood now... not feeling well... me go rest liao.
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*|THANKZ
Haha Had a great time today. Ri Xin, Hwee Min and Hwee Shan they gave me the Stream of Praise cd no 9. Haha It happened tat Jing Ting buy one forme too. Haha LOL!!! Oh U all are the best!!! Love tat cd especailly trak 14... "All things are possible" Hee hee... listening to it now. Really love it. Haha
WOW... Jing Ting gave me a lot for my bday... really a lot. THANKZ JING TING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hee hee the root beer tat u gave me from mache izzit is now in my fridge. Shall chill it before drinking. Haha... let me c I got a dolphin necklace from thailand, a really nice chocker which I hope can match with my prom dress, a friendship band (ARGH... u bluff me... told me u doing it 4 ur fren and somemore asked me choose colour... Haha I fell for it hook, line and sinker), purple flower soap, a really really nice keychain with a cross stitch cow (it is so silly looking but I like it haha), a book tat has a PIG on it (Hey are u trying 2 say I'm a pig? Haha LOL), a spag from aztec rose (haiz~ too bad now the shop no longer there liao... merge with tanlines right?), a bag (from topshop right... I love it!!! ARGH!!! Almost buy it the other time when we went shopping together... how come I didn't buy it then... erm... I cant rmb y... but it is such a lovely bag) and a blue bikini. Haha thank I can use tat once we all go suntan after our exams of course!!! THANKZ JING TING!!!!!!!!!!! U must have spend a lot... haha my great great fren... THANKZ... really touched. Haha really glad to have known u... Hee hee!!! Haha shall considering planning your 21st bday haha but then again, it is like next year... Haha still got time!
Si Xiu gave me a cross... tat is lovely. Thankz gal!!! Really glad u all rmb my bday though it is tml... Haha... oh today, the da ban (translation: big class haha) we had breakfast in class for sunday sch. Haha and they sang a bday song for me haha and make me eat a lot of food lor... u all good... if I fall sick hor then I dun need to take A level liao. Haha we had a mini sharing session and all of us are still puzzled over a qns and tat is if God has already know who will be saved and all tat, how come he dun tell us straight away... Found out today from Gui Xian lao shi tat actually everyone on this Earth... at some pt or another has been told about Jesus... This is so tat once anyone were to be judged by God, they have no excuse to say tat they have not heard about the gospel before... Had such an interesting discussion but we got to leave it to another time cos the english side ppl wanna use the room.
Didn't have lunch today cos immediately after okios service, we had rehearsal for xmas production. Haha... my character Zi Ling is a blur and slow gal... Haiz~ just realise how much I am becoming like tat... Tat Hwee Min made me so confused tat I become really blur... This time really blur not acting it. Haha then they laughed at me... they best liao. Haha Zi Ling ar... Zi Ling... y u so blur... but u a great character to act as. Haha I like tat role a lot. Hee Hee... After tat we had drum lessons. Each of us had to choose a song and play the drum according to wad we hear. I picked LFO - "girl on tv" thought it was easy but actually not easy!!! Had a hard time learning the beat... found out it is actually rather fast pace too... aiyo my choice of song is really tough. Haha shall practise it more often... got to ge it right by the next drum lesson which is erm... dunno when. Haha Tml 'A' level start and it is my 18th bday too... Haha Karin said based on her own experience , the paper u sitting for on your bday will be the paper u performed very well in... haha it is phy practical. haha LOL! It better be do-able. Haha had lots of fun today. I have really many good frens!!! U ALL R GREAT! Thanks so much and continue to grow closer to GOD each day!!!
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*|GRINNING
Haha... Know I suppose to be studying but I ended up chatting with Jing Ting just now when I saw her online. Haha so funny... few days ago, I send her a few postcards and a pack of tissue cos she sick. Haha She so funny... happily rushed to open the envelop and found out it is tissue and nearly died laughing. haha LOL... my brilliant and lame idea. Haha LOL... cant believe it myself too. I had a hard time sealing up the envelop cos the tissue pack is so bulky. Haha...
Going to miss Jing Ting when she go USA for 4mths next year from April to erm... August. She better come back to Singapore in time for her 21st bday. Haha... SO GOOD. 1 mth travel and 3mths work in USA... WAD A GREAT DEAL!!! SO GOOD!!! JEALOUS haha LOL... haha Think she working at yellowstone national park. Haiz sad can only use internet 30mins per week. ARGH... will miss JT!!! Haiz got to email her long long letters liao. Haha... Shall send her a easter egg... make sure the postman crash it then she can hav a specail watery letter. Haha... If I really do tat, she kill me... Haha
Haha JT and me ending exam on the same day 25 NOV... damn cool... tat day I will rush home after exam, grab my stay overnight stuff then head 2 town wif her for a feast... Tat is for our exam over celebration cum my 1mth belated bday celebration. Then go shopping tat day... I miss doing tat... will send like siao... Haha of course not going to spend all my $. Hee hee, it be damn fun... then stay overnight at her house... Haha think will most likely end up sneaking out at night. Haha damn exciting... cant wait for tat day to arrive. Haha LOL... so kiasu, now make plans... Shall await for tat day to arrive... about 1 mth away!!! WILL ENJOY MYSELF THEN. HAHA SHALL PARTY ALL DAY TAT DAY... Haha LOL... ok me go study now!!! Haha... so happy now!!!
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*|I CANT BELIEVE IT
SMILE SMILE LAUGH LAUGH HAHA LOL... I'm currently grinning from ear to ear and jumping for joy. Realise tat I got many many good freinds. I am so touched. MY GOSH... I cant believe it... Some of u know tat I like this cute TY piggy - omelet... erm... y I like it, I no idea y but I just like it a lot. MY GOSH... I was stunned when Ting told me she wrote in to TY customer email and asked about "omelet" and whether it is sol in spore. Their reply os tat there is currently no omelet in spore. No wonder I cant find it but MY GOSH... I DIDN'T KNOW THEY GO TO TAT EXTENT TO GET IT FOR ME. This is one shocking bday surprise... Haha must be wondering y I know about it though it isnot my bday yet... Ting just told me tat they not able to get it this mon cos it will not be shipped into spore yet. But I am still shocked. Really shocked... I am indeed surprised. THANKS HUI TING, KIWI AND WEE PIN... U ALL R E BEST!!! Haha... This is the best surprise ever. I still bit stunned and in shocked. ARGH!!! HAHA... I dunno say THANKZ how many times tat Hui Ting ban me from saying thanks. Seriously in shock. Best surprise ever. Haha... now I know y my class buy me a pig which when i unzip its head can become a piggy blanket... they must have saw my display pic... a pic of omelet. Haha maybe being 18 on the exact day tat A level starts isnt really tat bad after all. Haha.
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*|2 more days to A levels!!!
It is saturday now... rainning rather heavily. I dunno y I wanna come online. Just feel the urge to come online all of a sudden. Met Ri Xin online but there seemed to be a problem. She cant send me the song "All things are possible" ARGH... I like tat a lot. Haiz~ oh well... wad to do? Guess I hear it tml then... think we singing tat song again for services or for praise and worship session. Just less than 2 days time and the 'A' level will start liao. I am so dead, havn't started studying econs. Tat is not a smart thing to do since econs paper 3 is lik less than 3 weeks from now. Haiz~ feel so demoralised. My bday coming... but this year, I spend time worrying about my 'A' levels then bothering about my bday. Finally I will soon be 18 but with the start of the 'A' level on the very same day... not much excitement... cant celebrate much. Haiz~ a special day and yet it is ruined by the 'A' levels. There it goes down the drain. Haiz~ I will dread tat day cos A level start liao... Yet at the same time, I want it to arrive. So contradicting!!! Haha... guess I go back to studying then... Haha so I come online just to blg. Haha LOL... Haiz~ Wanna pass to Hui Ting some chem notes but she havn't reply my sms since this morning. Oh well, shall sms her again.
Oh almost forgot... Jye Min is going to Batam for a attachment for 6 weeks. She leaving Singapore on 25 of october. Batam... erm... Indonesia, not a really safe place. Pray tat God keeps her safe. Wow 6 weeks is like super long. Haha speaking about travelling reminds me of the conversation I had with my brother just now... He says tat he be working after 'O' level... and tat he used the $ he earned to go to Thailand and New Zealand to visit hos classmate/friend. Aiyo... He siad air ticket to New Zealand is only $400 plus. Where got tat cheap... if it is really tat cheap... I would have hopped onto an airplane and go visit Pei Shi in Auckland liao. Haiz~ Havn't seen her online since she left Singapore. Must be because of the time difference. Oh well... miss her. In bout 8mths or so, she be back in Singapore. Shall wait for tat day 2 come. Haha. Ok shall go study now! ;p
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*|Smile always
Now I'm listening to my godbrother's cd "Now 4"... All those rather old songs... but hey they r still very nice. Haha me trying to pick a song and figure out the drum beat. But I just cant catch how the drum is being played. ARGH... die liao lar. Tml Karin going to test us on tat. Haiz~ If only I got a drum set a home to practise. Haha but got to have sound proof walls, windows and doors so wont disturb anyone. It be damn cool if I have a set at home. Erm... Think after 'A' level, I go and learn how to play piano/keyboard. I'm kinda old for tat but oh well... who cares. Not my fault tat my parents wont allow me to learn it when I'm in pro sch thought I pester them for so long. Haha got a keyboard at home, cant let it go to waste, must learn. Really feel like learning guitar too... Haha but I think I leave tat for next time. Must figure out the drums first b4 moving on to sth else. Erm... shall go study now and not let e computer tempt me to using it longer. Haha... Really cant wait 4 'A' level to be over. Then I have church camp and xmas production to busy myself with... not tat I am complaining ;) Till now, I still havn't decide to ask which of my frens to go for my church's xmas production. Have some in mind but erm... I'm not sure. Shall think about it after the 'A'. Now study... left 2 more days b4 'A' level practical starts. YEAH!!! My 2 years of studying ... must not let it go to waste. Got to go study now! :)
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Haiz~ Went to schoold today at 9am cos got chem lesson. Sitting at the stairs leading to LT4 waiting for Mrs Wong 2 arrive. At tat time, only Pit Lu was there... She was really early. Haha couldn't go in cos these is a lesson going on inside. HAHA LOL... Pit Lu told me wad happened when she reached sch... SO FUNNY... TYPICAL PIT LU BEHAVIOUR!!! She ran into LT4 thinking tat no1 was inside... saw a large group of students inside... gave a scream then ran out. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA... so comical... i can just imagine all tat. HAHA LOL!!! When she told me tat I was laughing hysterically. Damn funny... too bad I wasn't there when she did tat but it is funny enough without her having to show me wad happened. LOL... In the end, we chased away 2 c;asses who thought they were using the LT... Mrs Wong was nowhere to be found... In the end, I went to staff room to look for her and she told me on the phone "I thought lesson is at 930" ARGH!!! Typical Mrs Wong, somemore previous lesson tell us lesson 8am start but we changed to 9 cos really too early liao. Mrs Wong so forgetful!!! Sometimes I wonder y Mrs Wong book such a large venue when only less than 10 of us turn up but the chem summary notes super useful. ARGH!!! 630pm liao... ok me wanna go watch TV... Mr Bean animation!!! Haha! ;p
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*|LET ME OUT!!!
The gate is giving me problems... cant get it open just now... LOCKED UP IN MY OWN HOME!!! Haha but phew... my dad managed to unlock it after like more than HAF AN HR. Erm.. It is time to change a new lock! Cant believe it... once I opened the gate and entered my house, it starts giving me prob. Oh well... at least it is unlocked for the time being. I am just suay. Haha LOL
Haha... I think I play more today than study. Haiz~ Let me c ... the things I must finished b4 tml's consultation (1) econs MCQ ,(2) 2 GP essay outline ,(3) chem worksheet... Whoa, I havnt touch a single one at all. Time to burn the midnight oil. Haiz~ STUDY!!! Haha... I must really stick to my study timetable liao if not I dun think I can finish studying everything b4 the 'A' levels is here. Haiz~ Me now online thought I am not supposed to be. Help my god-sister with her blog... actually it is her online store. She dunno HTML code u c, so since I know got to help her. Phew, I fixed the errors liao. Haiz~ where is Ri Xin??? Waiting for her to send me the song "All things are possible". Really love tat song... really meaningful. Guess I go buy the cd once I save up some $. :)
Finally, my appetite is coming back but I hav been craving for deep fried food. Now feeling so guilty for eating deep fried food for both my lunch and dinner. As for breakfast, I ate 1/2 a box of biscuits. I feel like a pig now. Haiz~ Shall watch wad I eat, dun wanna fall ill again at such a crucial time like this. Erm... SAJC having open house this sat. Should I or should I not go??? Think I should stay home study instead. Haiz~ cant wait for sunday and monday to come. Haha okok me go do my econs now if not having econ consultation tml is useless.
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*|'A' level coming!!!
Haiz~ I dunno wad I am doing these days. I am hardly stressed out... maybe a bit too relax too. I losing my momentum... desperately need to spur myself on. Feel tat life is kinda meaningless now... All I ever do is study, study, study. I hate tat. I dun even know wad I really wanna be in e future. Actually I kinda know wad my passion is... ARTS N MUSIC... but I have no skills and talents in tat area. Wonder wad I am doing in a JC. Oh well... As DP always says "No one is here by chance."
Haha... Must take time off to reflect about my personal life liao. I think I really changed a lot these past years. Haha, now thinking of my pri sch days. Think I quite bad... I was quite a class bully then, sometimes picking on my classmates and yet I am a monitoress (Did I spell correctly?)... Wad an IRONY!!! Guess most ppl dun believe I am like tat cos the first impression ppl hav of me is someone quiet. I am quite the opposite actually. Still rmb wad Pei Yan, my classmate told me... She thought I was those quiet quiet types till she heard me say all those lame stuffs. Hey, at least I did entertain them when they are bored. Let me see, my temper not as bad as it was in e past. Now I can control my temper much much better... Nowadays when I am super angry and pissed off, all I ever do is keep my mouth shut, run off to a corner and vent my anger by just crying. I sound like a crybaby... oh well, at least it is better than me throwing stuff around, yelling and picking fights wif my family members which I did in the past. Ok tat is bad but I am no longer like tat. Phew... Good thing I changed for the better.
Haiz~ Shall not blog anymore... TIME TO STUDY. Must pass with flying colours for the 'A' level. Hope I can meet all my expectations. Shall jia you and do my best. Must not give up... must continue studying... and close this chapter of my life. Cant wait for 'A' level to be over. OK got to go STUDY now :) Oh yah... ZI XUAN HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY!!! U a great angel!!! Haha Hope you enjoyed yourself yesterday and hope u like the presents I gave u too. Glad to have known u better thru angel mortal game. Haha :) TC gal! cya sunday!
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*|Friends...
I am studying now... Haha I really dun understand y music can affect me. I am listening to this music from a person's blog tat I happened to browse... http://predictability.blogspot.com/ ... love the music! I am like in a dreamy happy state, dunnno y too. Listening to the music makes me recall my past, the fun tat I had wif my frens and all tat... I missed my sec sch frens. It has being a really long time since I last seen them. I missed my JC frens and classmates too ever since the day we graduated. Sometimes I looked back and I see wad a miracle it is... Tat God gave me frens and put them there to help me thru my tough times. They were always there at the sidelines cheering me on. THANK YOU MY FRENS!!! I will always remember all of you... All of us easpecailly those who are taking 'A' level this year, will be starting a new chapter in our lives soon once the 'A' levels is over. Each of us will go our seperate ways... mayb we meet someday and maybe we wont meet again but no matter... I will still remember all the fun and laughter tat I had with my frens :) Luv u all!
"The Mile: People come into our lives and walk with us a mile, and then because of circumstance they only stay a while. They serve a need within the days that move so quickly by, and then are gone beyond our reach, we often wonder why. God only knows the reason that we meet and share a smile, why people come into our lives and walk with us a mile."
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*|GP remedial
Had a GP remedial today on our mock paper 2. Miss Sng said she had a tough time marking all our scripts. Haha she said tat she marked till she run out of ink... She finished her red and blue ballpoint pen. Haha She even said tat she ended up having to mark using a gold pen. Not only tat, she marked till she dropped the gold pen on the floor and encounted ink flow problem and finally had to use a silver pen to mark. Haha The script tat she was marking must be mine cos some of the golden words she had to be written over using the silver pen. Haha I did horribly for this mock paper 2. Haiz~ It is time for some consultation... Haiz~
Hee Hee I just brought a pair of metal earrings and braclet from my god-sister. She starting an online jewellery shop soon I think. Haha Tat is cool... wish I could help out but for now I have to concetrate on studying for my 'A' levels. Erm... left exactly 1 week. Ok shall go study now.
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*|YEAH!!!
Today is Monday. Haha Wei Da came to my house fix computer just now. YEAH!!! CAN FINALLY USE COM... CAN USE INTERNET... NO MORE "FUNNY" VIRUS... YEAH YEAH YEAH!!! Haha tat is how happy I am. Haha grining from ear to ear. Haha but now tat it is fixed... must resist the tetmption of using it. Must study for 'A' level.
Yesterday, Xmas production rehearsal was ok. Haha My brother was so funny... still cant stop laughing at him. Haha... Karin is adding more scenes 2 e play. Next week... is our last reher=arsal before the exams. I will miss the fun tat I had during rehearsal. 1 month no rehearsal... damn sad. Haha next week going to rehearsal the later part of e play where we will be speaking most of the time. Time to act serious... Haiz~ I going to have lots of programme translating everything to chinese. Ok time to study!!!
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*|Wasted
Yesterday (Fri), Hui Ting, Wee Pin and me went tover to Wei Da's house study overnight. Haiz~ We wanna to surprise Tin Song with a swensens ice cream cake and guess wad... He didnt come in the end. He cannot stay overnight. Wad a waste... make me carry tat stupid heavy 1kg from Westmall all e way to Wei Da's house... Haha along the way... I had to keep it from melting. Guess wad I did... the most stupidest thing ever, I had to keep on walking to the frozen food and ice cream area in Jurong Point NTUC... haha Pretend to be looking at the food. Haha but actually I was borrowing some of the coldness. Still not bad, manage to stop the dry ice from melting further. Phew. Oh well, in the end we ate the cake at night. Haha bday boy not there. Hey I ate mashed potato... those instant kind... cool never did know got such thing. Haha oh well, there is a first time for everything right. Guess this is the time. Actually wanted to study thru the night but guess wad, I feel asleep in the end. Was too tired. All the econs cher fault. Told us tat e econ remedial starts at 730am... make me wake up at 545am. Then when I was about to leave home, Parvinder sms me tell me tat Mr Lee changed it to 10am. Haiz~ in the end, I didnt go back to sleep but went to mac with Yun to eat breakfast then study. Hee hee... had a good night sleep yesterday. Slept on a matress tat is laid on the floor... good thing I very used to tat cos I at home also sleep using matress on the floor. Now wanna watch TV... ARGH... still havn't finish my phy MCQ paper. Haiz~ my physics sucks... Sian... must go brush up on it liao. ' A' level coming up.
Yeah... tml got rehearsal 4 xmas production. Yeah... it is damn fun. Love it a lot. Haha tml my brother will be playing as De Feng, Ke Xin/Ri Xin's bf... haha LOL... I will have fun laughing at him liao. Ri Xin's bf!!! Tat is a funny sight. Haha. Haiz~ as for me, I got to continue to look dumb and stupid and have to be slow. LOL... so far, still not bad but I have to work on it. As for my lines... got to rmb them in chinese liao, can't keep on looking at the script. Really cant wait for A level to be over. Yeah!!! Haha later going with Hui Ting and Yi Hui to swim. 7pm ... erm... kinda late but oh well, I dun mind it anyway. Havn't being swimming for quite some time liao. Ok tat's it!!! Shall go study now... Haiz cant believe the guys... playing computer games... They like didnt study much. Haha... Ting ask Tin Song to come over here later, we going to celebrate his bday with 1 slice of ice cream cake (if there is any left) and 18 candles and a bday tag on it. Haha... Ok G2G study !!!
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*|12 Oct - farewell (part 2)
We had our last civics lesson. Mrs Wong gave each of us a photo frame. It is really nice. Anyway after tat we went to Sentosa. Pei Yun and me went to Sentosa first while the rest of my class went to Harbour Front food court eat. We didn't want to wait 4 them 2 finish eating. After all, we weren't tat hungry. Anyway, I just discovered tat there is a beach linetat will take u directly to the beach. It is realy so much faster but as for the waiting time, it is actually quite long. Haha but Pei Yun and I were lucky, it came at exactly the time we paid our entance fee. Haha we stop at sunset bay. I had go sunset bay... usually I go to Palawan beach as it is so much quieter there and wads more, there are fewer ppl at tat area. Anyway, we waited for the rest to arrive and not long after, Samuel Chen, Bryan and Bing Hong arrived. They didnt know the beach line can bring them right up to Sunset Bay... so guess wad they did... They walked all the way from Palawan beach to Sunset Bay... poor them. Shortly after they arrived, I went to explore one of the small islands. Found a really beautiful seashell... Haha actually wanna climbed the rocks and stand at the edge to look out to sea but there was this stupid big lizard who was in the middle of my lane so I had no choice but to turn back and head back to the bench... Wad a pity but oh well... It was kinda dangerous I must say to climb it. Haha...
After Shin Leng they all arrived, I took a walk along the beach by myself. The other gals wanna sutan but I dun wan... I kept walking and walking... If Pei Yun didnt go find me and bring me back, I would have walked all e way to Palawan beach which I was at tat time deciding if I should go there. Haha then Pei Yun told me tat all along, Samuel Chong was behind me... Haha I didnt realies tat. But I really enjoyed the sea breeze and all tat... It was really great to be alone for once... cast all your worries aside and let yourself be captivated by nature. The sea was really beautiful and the sound of the waves and all tat... Erm... it is good.
Anyway, we started playing games and all tat till we saw a big group of ppl walking over to our area. Oh... We found out later tat they were from the police force. Haha... They had a mini tug of war competition. Me, Pit Lu and Pei Yan we were all thinking who will win... which team and all tat. It was when we started toking bout it... then this 2 policeman came over to chat wif us. They from the Tanglin department. We tok lots and watched too. Toa Payoh if I not wrong, they won. Wow defending champions on grass n on sand. Not bad... but the funny thing is when Pit Lu started toking 2 those 2 guys, she started suaning them. Haha in the end, they had a pretty funny argument. Dun feel like typing all tat I had learnt from the conversation. But it was really typical Pit Lu behaviour to start toking to strangers and suaning them. After quite some time, they chatted as if they werw buddies right from the start. Very funny lar, tat Pit Lu. Haha it was fun watching them. Stayed there till about 7pm... tok quite a few photos too. Haha Then me, Pit Lu and Pei Yan wanted to go est dinner then go home. So we went off while the rest were bathing.
Haha... While we were waiting for the beach line to arrive... guess wad we saw, a police car and on the side of the car wrote the words "Bukit Merah West" ... if I not wrong. Then tat Pit Lu pointed at it... Haha the policeman thought we needed help, stopped their car and reversed. Haha in the end, Pit Lu got to xplain to them... Wow, she best liao... Superb. Haha and I thought tat we had enough of policeman liao. Oh yah did I mention tat we saw some ah bengs and guess wad they r policeman. Whoa... looks can be deceiving. Haha anyway when we were on the beach line bus... we met the 2 policeman again. Haha Pit Lu and Yan were sitting directly near the door and when the door of the bus opened, The 1st thing the 2 policeman saw was bpth of them. Haha then the 2 guys and Pit Lu started exclaiming how unlucky they were. It was really funny. We ended up on the same bus with them which bring us back to Habour Front. Haiz ~ Tat Pit Lu even on bus can quarrel with them. In the end, they exchanged numbers and email. LOL!!! Typical Pit Lu behaviour. Haha... Then e 3 of us went to eat sushi at Sakae Sushi. It is my 1st time there... I dun really like sushi so well... I didnt go there n eat. Anyway the food is great. Haha... had fun while I was there and guess wad e 2 guys called Pit Lu while we were eating and Yan and I ended up listening to Pit Lu chat and suaning them. Sometime it was so funny, sometime it was so exegerated... Nearly lose our appetite. Haha Had a blast tat day... Love my classmates, miss them all. Love SAJC and miss it terribly!!! I will treasure all the times I spent with my classmates!
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*|12 Oct - farewell (part 1)
Haiz~ Yesterday I finally graduated from SAJC. We had our very last chapel yesterday (tuesday). I really going to miss tat. Love chapel though the songs they sing during worship session are those tat I sang when I was in primary school. Mrs Wong led a group of teacher in the singing of the song, "ye di de hua"- translation " wild flower" Haha I am really lousy in translating. It really reminds me of the fact tat God really cares for us. If He can even care for the flowers growing along the roads and the birds and beasts of this Earth, He will care and love us humans even more. Really going to miss chapel... Tat is really something tat is special and unique about SAJC. Every forthnight, we have assemblies instead and most of the time, Miss Chia, our DP (deputy principal), will tell us many many of her life stories. They are all about her family, her sch life and her faith in God. Going to miss all tat.
After tat, we had our farewell assembly. There was a slide presentation by the photographic society. Looking at all those phots, I couldn't help thinking about how it was like when I first entered SAJC. The frens and classmates tat I had. The orientation, the cafe... It was all so fun. I really hope I can keep all these memories stored up in my head forever but as always, there will be some things tat I will bound to forget... but 1 thing I will not forget is the fun tat I had in SAJC. The closeness and the warmth feeling that SAJC had. After tat, we had all those speeches but 1 speech tat touched me the most was Mr Roland Lee's. He was my 1st 3 mths phy tutor... Haha a super slack and very fun cher. In his speech, he talked about the sch spirit... about how we went to support our sch team even if it wasn't the events. We went to support Team SAJC right from the very 1st match... He talked about the time when SA scored a goal in e soccer match against VJC... How all of us leaped out of our seats and screamed with joy. U can see the school spirit... can see how hard we wanted the SA soccer team to win. Though we didnt make it but I must say the soccer guys did super well. The make it all e way to 2nd place. It is so unbelievable. Mr Lee also talked about the time when the volleyball girls and how when saints rally together, they can create wonders. Haha... really love the school spirit. We saints are my big family... one family broken. Haha though now I have graduated from SAJC... I will always be a saint... As the saying goes "Once a saint, Always a saint". Haha during the farewell assembly, We passed down all our farewell presents. Received a lot, a lot of stuffs from my close friends. Haha WILL MISS THEM!!!
After tat, we gathered as a class to celebrate october babies' birthday. We took quite a lot of photos. Received a really really nice birthday card that Chi Ki and Ru Ying, our class welfare rep, made. Really liked it. Haha Think Shin Leng buy the bday presents... Hee hee got a pig that when you unzip can become a blanket. Haha I think she buy pig for me cos my display picture is a pic of a pig, omelet. LOL... It is really great. Ru Ying's is a monkey if I am not wrong. Haha if I ever had to stay over in church during the december hols for intense xmas production rehearsal... Guess wad I do, I bring the PIG. Can use it either as a pillow or blanket. Haha!!! Thankz (directed to my classmates of 03S73)! Haha after that, Xiu, Yan Pit and me ... We went to lok for the resrt of the volleyball girls. We gathered outside the artroom to get the stuff we buy for Mr Chay for farewell. Haha If not wrong, there are 9 different things and so each one was able to hold one item. Went to surprise Mr Chay and make him agreed to give us a treat after our A level. Haha did take some photos with him too. Recreational volleyball is damn slack but it is really fun. I love it... We had fun screaming everytime we dropped or missed e volleyball. Think our scream always attract a lot of attention unintentionally... Haha just imagine a bunch of gals screaming so loudly tat u can almost hear them across the field. Haha... miss all the fun tat I had. Best cca ever! Miss tat!
Haha This is going to be a super long entry but I will still continue... Haha Our sch held ateachers concert where the teachers perform for us students. We can watch this performance if we purchase the tickets... Yup me and my frens got them. It was fantastic. The 1st few items were super retro. Haha... looks can be deceiving. Some teachers are can sing and dance and act even... and we least expect it from them cos they look like the quiet quiet type. Miss Sng can play he piano... She is really an all-rounder. She is good academic wise and in the area of sports too. She is fantastic. She is my fav GP cher... the best ever!!! The PE department did their very ow video clip... It was damn funny and for once I realised tat they are damn lame... even lamer than us students. Had fun watching it and ended up laughing like 3/4 of the time. It is either they are naturally tat lame (must be because we students influence them 2 be tat way) or they must have spend lots of time racking their brains trying to think of sth funny. I think the 1st is the correct view. Haha Mrs Wong, my CT (civics tutor) did perform too... she played this chinese instrument. I dunno wad it is called though. It was ok. Haha The skit was funny... The chers were afraid tat we find it funny but we ended laughing. It is a sit on how this bunch of ppl tried to make a movie... bu their acting cant make it. Haha the chers had to be very dramatic, cried non-stop and do many lame stuffs. Haha but it was really great. SAJC teacher dance company did dance too... Damn zai. Haha There were other song and dance item. Haha cant believe Mrs Kang and Ji Wen lao shi actually perform together. Mrs Lim, SAJC principal did perform too. She was part of the indian dance performance. Like Mrs Lim, she is really enthu and fun-loving. Haha actually this concert is so tat we can raise funds for next year funfair... It be the seed money for the J1s. Haha love it... really worth the $8 even if it is held in the hall. It is rare tat our cher can for once dun care about their image and dress super retro and perform for us. Haha oh yah... I forgot to mention tat ther was a GP cher, Miss Ang I think(erm... not sure), her singing is damn good. She can be part of the Singapore Idol lor... Really zai. Haha so unbelievable and to think they are our chers, the ones who make us sit thru all those boring lectures and tutorials. Haha I MISS SAJC!!! LOVE SAJC!!! Really love it there... It is like my 2nd home. My best school days... realise tat I did lots of things tat I will dare think of doing once I entered SAJC. Haha SAJC... love it... Haha I'm really proud to be a saint and a saint I will be always and always!!!
Haha guess I better go sleep liao... I finished part 2 of this long and interesting day tml. Actually wanna blog it yesterday but was too tired. Guess I shall go sleep liao. Tml still got GP consultation! Haha
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*|Horrible...
ARGH... my computer got tat stupid prog called "funny". I cant get rid of it!!! Wad in the world! The stupid printer wont print the document tat I want. My fav white spag got blue stains and I actually planned to wear tat tml. NO!!! Haiz... I havn't do spare farewell gifts. I'm still sick. Tml got sch... have to wake up at 545am and yet I am still not asleep yet. It is 0059hr. This is horrible. This is horrible... ARGH... ARGH... ARGH... ARGH...
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*|Late
Guess it is pretty late liao and yet I'm still online. From tml on, shall not use the com too often. Haiz~ Must concentrate on my studies. tat is going to be tough but shall push myself in tat direction. A levels is round the corner. I dun wan it to come and yet at the same time I wish it can come and go fast... I wanna live life meaningfully and not live for the sake of studying. Now, my life is total boredom... All I ever do is study. The only interesting thing that I'm doing is the xmas production. A production tat we are doing for God... Now, tat worth more than A level. Haiz~ but it doesn't mean I can neglect my studies either. After the A levels, it is time for serious playing and intense rehearsal. Going to love tat. Guess I shall carry on studying. Time to sleep. Damn late liao... though tml no sch, I dun think I should sleep tat late. Must condition my mind to be active and alert in the morning. Evening and night time is meant for sleeping , meant for rest... God wouldn't have created e night for nth. Hee Hee... guess I better go sleep liao.
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*|XMAS production rehearsal
Today is Sunday... Had rehearsal for our xmas production. Today was really not bad, had lots of fun. At least now I'm more comfortable wif my role though there r times where I had problems expressing myself in chinese. Haha Enoch is shy guy. LOL!!! Haha Thankz to all their constructive ideas, Zi Ling is now really more of a follower. Haha I must keep on acting blur and gong and SLOW too. Haha... LOL... I really starting to like tat role and Ke Xin ... HAHA she is turning out to be a pig... OH NO, every scene she be eating and toking at the same time. LOL... Ri Xin, Tat is so like u. Haha... Hui Nan is now glad tat Ashley get 2 die early haha cos she having problems wif translating the script to chinese. Haha dunno how I am going to survive the later part of the script where there is lesser action and more talks. Tat be tough. Haha shall go study now. Oh I almost forget to say this, Cedric is acting as De Feng, Ke Xin/ Ri Xin 's BF. Haha, tat b interesting and funny to watch. LOL
Haha almost forget this... After the hearsal, Ri Xin's parents drove me to Westmall. When I was taking the escalator up, I thought I saw Parvinder and indeed it was her but since she is too fa ahead of me, I didnt call out to her. Then, when I turn back and look around while I was on the escalator, I saw Pit Lu and Joan. Haha In the end, Pit Lu, Joan and Parvinder saw each other and started chatting. Haha LOL... guess wad I did, I walked up slowly to their side and just stood btw Pit Lu and Parvinder. Haha In the end, they noticed me and was surprised. Happened tat we all went westmall to get supplies for our farewell gifts. Hee Hee... Not only tat, while I was at Bukit Batok MRT on the way 2 e interchange, I saw Dorinda. She still looks the same. Hee Hee... at the us interchange, I met Parvinder again... Not only tat, I also met Koon Guan. He is also taking bus 941. Haha just one day and I meet quite a lot of ppl. Haha TODAY IS A GREAT DAY. Guess wad, Parvinder told me tat tml most probably no GP remedial cos Miss Sng didnt reply her or sms her wad time we have to report n where we having our GP tutorial. Haha... can sleep late liao.
Oh yah, Karin (my drum cher cum xmas production director) wants us to look for a song and listen to the drum beat. We supposed to play exactly wad we hear. Damn tough, time for me to find a song that has a drum beat tat is not to fast. Haiz so long didnt practice drum liao. Die... time to brush up on my drumming skills. haha Shall sign off now.
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*|Farewell gifts and "insect bite"
Saturday now, I feeling so much better after consulting the doctor yesterday. No more puking feeling. Flu getting better so is my sore throat. Medicine still as disgusting as the previous time I ate it. Haha... but so much better. Thank God! Haiz~ my mother dun let me go swimming with Yi Hui and Hui Ting. Feel so guilty... cos of me being sick, Ting they all postpone swimming to next week. Next week I will definitely go. Haha MISS THE POOL.
I have finally finished the farewell presents. Took the whole morning to do them after I watched "Winx club" and "Touched by an angel". Haha must be wondering y I watched the cartoon "Winx Club". Tat is cos I really think that the cartoonist is really good in his/her drawing. The characters are all very beautiful and graceful individuals. Haha wish I could draw tat well... and I like the ending song too. Nice melody. Haha. Finally the farewell gifts are done but I havn't do any spare presents yet. Oh dear... I'm running out of materials liao. Haha think I spend bout $10 or less for gifts. Quite little money but tat is cos the pther materials I got it from my store room. Making lots of personalised gifts takes a lot of time but I wont complain bout it anymore since I have already finished them.
Anyway, when I went to c the doc yesterday, I asked her bout the insect bite tat I had 5mths ago. Found out it is not an insect bite. Polyclinic doctors are lousy... told me is insect bite. It is actually a sebecous gland or some skin thingie injury and it might get worse if I dun treat it but cos yesterday I'm sick and the exams are coming out, the doc dun wan 2 remove the lump or wadever tat is inside tat is causing tat section of skin to b black. Doing it after the A levels, she said she had to cut open tat section of my skin, reomve wadever tat is inside and then stitched it back up. Tat is scary. If I am not wrong, I b fully awake n alert at the time when she is doing it. Haiz~ The doc also said tat cos I quite tan, it might leave a scar. So tat is settled, after A level and ater graduation night, I go see her and have it removed. I wonder how long it takes to heal. Haiz~ no more sun-tanning for me especailly this Tuesday when I go Sentosa with the rest of my classmates. Whoa I cant believe Pit Lu is going. She dun like Sentosa but she sms me tat she go if we go and since we go, she will go. Haha so many "go". Oh well, shall go study now since my parent going to drag me to IMM instead of letting me swim wif Hui Ting and Yi Hui.
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*|Helo
It has been a while since I blog... too lazy and tired to blog. Have flu recently... My gosh, this is the worse flu ever. It keep making me wanna throw up. Every sneeze give me the feeling of puking. Really hope it stops being this way cos it is super xing ku especailly after every meal... cos I feel like throwing up then. Frankly speaking I rather not eat or drink. It happens so frequently ... tat puking feeling, damn terrible.
Anyway on Wed, Tin Song told me tat Nr Goh passed away. Mr Goh is my sec sch cca cher. He is a really nice person to tok to and it is not even 1 year since he retired. Its sad to see such a nice teacher go like tat. He got cancer I think. Went for his funeral wake yesterday, we only went there 4 a short while. Realised tat I dunno much about the customs. It is kinda different from a christian funeral wake. At a christain funeral wake,if I not wrong, ppl will sing songs of prasie to God. I just feel tat a christain view death differently from non-christian. We tend to be sad initially but after a while, we be glad cos the person tat we loved who has passed away has returned home to where God is. Life on Earth is kinda like a journey and our final destination is HEAVEN to where our Father is. If one day I were to die, I wont want my frens to cry for me. I want them to be happy cos I be in heaven with the LORD. I live there eternally... and I be happy forever. But for now... I have to live my life meaningfully, life is too short to waste!!!
Anyway on Wednesday evening, we (Xiu, Yun, Yan, Pit & me) went shopping at Orchard for bags. Haha Pit Lu dunno tat we were actually shopping for a bag for her... It is a super belated bday present n we giving it to her on graduation day. Haha Yan lie 2 her tat she is buying for her fren cos her fren bday is coming. Yan manage to convince Pit tat her taste is same as her frens. In the end, we found out wad kind of bag she like. It is a white bag (really nice to touch) from blood brothers. Haha she didnt suspect anything and we going to keep it tat way till graduation day. Tat Pit Lu fell for it hook, line and sinker... I wanna c her shock expression tat day. Haha cant wait. Haha shall go do farewell presents now.
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*|Mock GP
I'm sick... had flu and sore throat... Went 4 GP mock exam today. As I lok thru e whole paper 1 qns, I slowly eliminate those qns tat I really dun feel like dong or dunno how 2 do. Guess wad... When I reached the last qns, qns 12, I realised I eliminated all. Ultimate disaster... in the end I picked qns 3 ' Acceptance is the best way to deal with change. ' Discuss. I dun really hav much content... I wrote 2 pg n 3lines of compo in less than 45mins. I really dunno wad 2 write... N i was trying not 2 sneeze, dun wanna disturb my fellow neighbours. I was haf writing, haf sleeping... had a bad headache. Haiz... I really cannot believe myself... I actually wrote my compo in 45mins... Tat is like so short a time. Haiz... This is terrible. Oh well... Heck lar... mock exam in the afternoon... they got to b kidding. I'm so brain dead n tired then. Oh well... shall go study now ;p
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*|Oh well...
Think I sound bery sad and pissed off in the previous entry... well I am but I'm feeling much better now. Was telling Jing Tingsss bout it... was toking to HUO jing ting and FU jing ting about it. Haha oh well... today went to buy cake for my mother's bday at Bangawan Solo (I think I spell wrongly) Haha I was the last customer of the day. After I buy the cake they closed shop... it is kinda early right... dun u think so. Oh well... sure go do the VJC maths prelim paper now which got me so pissed off n sad just now. Wondering y sth so small can affect me greatly... haiz~ now listening to R Kelly- Ignition. Nice song... got the MTV
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*|Overwhelmed with anger and sadness
Damn pissed off. Today after econ lect I went to the [hotocopy shop in my sch n asked for 5 copies of VJC maths prelim. Damn pissed... I waited for every long and the aunty keep forgetting to print wad I wanted. Wads worse, the aunty keep on print for those ppl queuing behind me... she printed, econs, maths n wadever shit they want... excuse me 4 my use of words but I'm damn pissed. All I wanted was 5 VJC maths prelim... cos Yun they all dun wan NJC maths too n the aunty like print these 2 math prelim papers together. So those ppl behind they wanted 10 plus copies of VJC n NJC paper and the aunty printed for them... n I keep seeing ppl behind me just asking the anuty to print more n more VJC cum NJC papers... N they got wad they wanted. Damn irritated... I waited for 30 bloody mins... 30 bloody mins... n tat aunty keep forgetting wad Iwanted. All I wanted was tat damn 5 copies of VJC paper. I saw other J2 classes ppl happily walking off wif the VJC cum NJC paper. At a point in time, this gp of gals did lok at me cos they know they cutting queu and they got their maths paper chem paper n wadever shit paper... How the hell I know. Can tell... they know they cutting queue, they dun bother. Just when I was bout to walk off, the aunt asked me if I wanted VJC cum NJC, she told me VJC paper alone got to wait... Come on get real... I wanted 5 copies and she had already printed 31 copies plus of VJC n NJC... how difficult is it to print only 5 VJC paper. Damn it, in the end I heck care n buy 5 copies of VJC n NJC paper. If my frens dunn wan them I shall just tear in up in their face n throw it in the dustbin... too damn pissed off to care.
I got so angry tat once I left school... that my eyes started to tear. I dun like being angry or sad cos I keep on remembering about very sad events tat happened in the past. These events left too deep a wound in my heart that I just cant forget. I am a person who think too much when I am sad or angry. I just keep playing back all the bad memories or bad things tat happened to me in the past. It is really overwhelming and I just wished I can cried and forget bout everything but it hurts too much that even though it happened years ago, I cant forget it. There is no way I can erase it from my memories. It is so suffocating... just imagine for more than 10 years, all my anger, pain and sadness, I told no one, not a single soul... well I only told GOD. And everytime I needed someone to be there, no one was there for me. Sometimes, I can cry or my eyes start tearing and my fres who are standing beside me, they dun even know. It just too much for me to bear. But I dun really want them to know, I just dun. Ke Wei, my 1st 3mths classmate was the only person who could tell that I am not really who I am. She is e 1st person who saw tat there is 2 sides of me... 1 is the happy always trying to be lame... She knows tat I am not telling sth or tat I hiding sth. I guess she is right. It is only when I went for my church camp 2 years ago, tat I started playing angel mortal game and started to really share wif my frens my problems. Really... I shouldn't bottle them up. I really should let go of my past but it is so hard to just forget. Haiz... It is high time I learn to control my feelings and prevent from myself from being overwhelmed by wad is happening around me. I dun wan little incidents to slowly affect my mood... Haiz... at least now I feeling so much better. Not as pissed off or as sad as b4. Oh well... time to put a smile on my face since it is my mother's bday today.
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*|Interesting day
Today didnt eat breakfast or lunch cos in the afternoon at 330pm having high tea with my god family. Haiz~ ended up having gastric pain during today youth's fellowship session which happens 2 be a study session. When they went out 4 lunch, I remained in the room. It was really painful, nearly puke. Frankly speaking, I need 2 change my eating habits. Nowadays I only eat when I feel like eating, dun think tat is really good 4 my stomach. Oh well... but I managed 2 ren till high tea. I always tend 2 skip some meals if I having buffet or high tea cos I dun like feeling really bloated. Tat y I prefer 2 go wif an empty stomach but I didnt today's one is really bad.
Oh well enough bout tat... I like the praise and worship session. Can really tell we sang our hearts out, even though only less than 10 of us was present. OH NO, I 4got to take attendance 4 today's youth fellowship. Shall do tat later. Anyway I like this part of the song, Hwee Min changed the lyrics... Haha
It's a great thing to study with God (3X)
Studying in the light of the God
Study study in the light(3X)
Studying in the light of God
Suzanna jie jie, my god sister, gave me a sleeveless tee 4 my bday though it is still more than 2 weeks away. Haha... After tat high tea, both me and suzanna jie jie went 2 buy cake for mama's bday. The rest they went home by car first, so we head off to Orchard to buy cake but in the end, we went to Far East level 1. I tried this strapless dress. It's pink (definitely not 1 of my fav colour) . I love it, though I must say it is difficult to zip up the dress but tat cos there is a elastic band there. Makes it hard 2 zip but the dress cant do without it. Haha imagine if there is no elastic band, the strapless dress would hav just dropped to the floor after I wear it. I love tat dress... but of course I didnt buy it. Oh well, sure consider buying it. Not now though. Haha.
Suzanna jie jie says she wanna start her own online business. Most probably selling earrings... I wanna help too. Haha if she really is going to start business, I will most likely help design t-shirts for her 2 sell if she manage to get those plain tees or sleeveless top or tank top or spag etc. Haha It be so cool... I dunno if she will really carry out her plan. Well, I shall just pray bout it. Hope it come true. Haha shall go study now!
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*|Wad girl n guy said...
THIS IS WHAT A GIRL TOLD A GUY
If you see me walking with someone else,
It's not because i like his company.
It's because you're not brave enough to walk beside me.
If you hear me talking about him all the time,
It's not because he pleases me.
It's because you're too deaf to hear my heartbeat.
If you feel me falling with someone new,
It's not because i love him.
It's because you're not there to catch me fall.
If you feel lost, i too am nowhere.
I too, don't know where the road is going.
Are we gonna cross each other's path,
Or just completely turn around?
Will we just let go of what we had,
Or go to the place where love is bound?
Don't let me walk with him,
It's you i want to walk with.
Don't let me talk to him,
It's you i want to talk with.
Don't let me fall for him,
It's you i want to fall in love with.
THIS IS WHAT THE GUY REPLY
When you thought i wasn't brave enough to walk beside you,
I was behind you every step of the way.
Still filled with awe because of the beauty that stands before me.
When you thought i was too deaf to hear your heartbeat,
I didn't want to assume anything.
And i was afraid to lose our friendship.
When you thought i wasn't there to catch you,
It's because you never gave me the chance.
You never reached the bottom,
You've already grabbed a branch.
If you feel like you are nowhere, i too am lost.
I too, don't know where the road is going.
Are we going to turn around,
Or are we gonna cross each other's path?
Will we just let go of what we had,
Or just go to the place where love is bound?
Don't let me walk alone,
I want to walk by your side.
Don't let me talk to someone else,
It's you i want to talk with.
Don't let me fall for someone else,
It's you i want to fall in love with.
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*|Haiz...............................
Was chatting with Jye Min in the afternoon, she wished me a n early happy bday cos on my bday she be going Batam for 6 weeks 4 her attachment. I'm really surprised tat she wished me happy bday cos I didnt expect her or any of my sec sch frens 2 rmb it. Guess it is cos I didnt dun exactly celebrate my bday. There is no cake at all or presents... so 4 me... Bday is ... I dunno sth I look forward & at the same time wish it just passed quickly. Not many ppl rmb my bday cos it always fall on special days like last day of exam, graduation tea and open house. Guess this year, it is no difference... it is the start of the 'A' level exam. Oh well... Haiz~ I also dunno wad wrongs wif me... these few days super moody. Actually I do know y but oh well... I cant do anything bout it. Might as well forget bout it... Ok I dun seemed to make any sense... I dun even know wad I talking about. Oh well... Confused now.
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