*|Summer holiday
I just realised that the previous time I blog is 14 April. Wow, that is quite a long time ago considering the fact that I used to be a frequent blogger but nowadays I hardly do that anymore. It is because I have so much work to do that I don't really have time to blog and the other thing is I don't have anything much I want to blog about.
It's 30th April now. Kaman, Felice, Jia Hui and Erica has gone to Mt Rainer, Seattle. I almost went with them but I backed out in the end. Now, I am probably heading to L.A during the summer holiday. I will be going UCLA to study 2 film modules. Seriously, I am excited about it. Going with Rong Rong, Elgin and Jit. Happy! I have at least a christian buddy to go with me. That will be Rong Rong. Don't have to face the problem of finding someone to go to church with then. I wonder how the place will be like. It is time I start taking out my camera and snap away like how a tourist usually does on tours.
As for Wang Xun, Xuan Ming and Si Yuan, they will be heading to MIT, Boston. Suddenly it seems that most of my friends are heading to America. Pretty cool. We can all meet up there. Well, probably not with Wang Xun and the rest as they are too fr away from us. But as for Felice and the rest, that is a different matter. They be touring L.A from 27-31 July after their work period. It be fun to meet up with them. SO EXCITING! Can't wait. Haha
Haiz~ But for now, I better get back to drawing my storyboards especially so when the angles are all pretty much dynamic. It be a bit tough to imagine and draw them out. I need maya to assist me in that. ok, time to back off from laptop.
*|cailing scribbled on the sand at 10:49 PM|*
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*|Too tired...
Ultimate exhaustion. That is the state I am in now. Trapped in mini maya lab, I continue modeling my ear as my body cries out for sleep. I want to sleep but the problem is there is simply no space for me to do so. The sofa in student lounge are taken, so are the bean bags in mini maya lab. I really need a place comfortable enough to lie down. Guess I am left with one option, model till 5am. By then, Shi Qi and Jia Hui would have left to develop their prints. I just have to tolerate the queasiness of my body for another one and the half hour. I know it is ridiculous blogging all these down. I just need a break from maya. God, help me. I am too tired. Really too tired.
*|cailing scribbled on the sand at 3:26 AM|*
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*|Rely on God
My external harddisk had some problems today and till now, all my data is temporarily gone and I really hope it stayed that way and not reach the status of permantently gone. I shouldn't have gone home, shouldn't have told my parents about this. They ended quarreling because of this. It's all my fault again. I really don't want to cause all this unhappiness. I feel so dumb. I feel like an idiot and maybe I have always being one. God was right to say I have low self esteem. I do have one... I dunno, I have cried tll my tears gone dry and I dunno what I am feeling.
All I know is I am left with one thing to do, rely on God entirely for strength and comfort and peace. Nothing more I can do. Have come to the very end of my capabilities. Now I shall just read my art history and do my best for presentation. That's all I can do. That's all.
*|cailing scribbled on the sand at 10:25 PM|*
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