I watched Lust, Caution yeaterday. Not because it is R21, but I like the thriller. It seems interesting and after watching it, I love it. The dialogue is fantastic especially the opening scene. Whoa, it has subtext written all over it. Mahjong was a good choice of element to use in this film. The one thing I really dislike and AM UTTERLY DISGUSTED is by all the sex scene. It was like WHACK! Straight in your face, we are having sex! Totally grossed out. I know the first sex scene and the scene with Mak Tai Tai looking at the time whilke having sex is important to the story but the rest of the sex stuff is overly done. Over kill and totally redundant. And if you really want to do a sex scene make sure it is convincing. Some of the camera movements accidentally reveal their ... (fill in the blank yourself) when they are suppose to pretend and act that they are having sex. I think they should get rid of those shots that accidentally reveal that because it will just pull the audience out of the story. The audience will no longer be immerse in the narrative but rather think "They just acting." Besides that, the rest of the story is pretty good.

Actually I was planning to watch "The Game Plan" but apparently the cinema are not screening them anymore. What a disappointment. I was seriously looking forward to that. Oh well, I shall catch it on VCD then. I kinda wanted to watch "Enchanted". I know, I know... You will think that movie is pretty lame. But I like fairy tales that are out of this world. 2D to real life... That's impossible. And I like ot for the fact that it is light-hearted. Lust, Caution left me utterly disgusted and disturbed. I don't like walking out of cinemas feling this way. Watching movies suppose to help me relax not make me tense. Yup... The wonders of films. Sigh... I better go sleep soon. Tired. Good night!

Finally, the submission for Black and White photography is done. We crit and all that. Wayne is really observant. He knew things about me just by looking and frankly speaking, I agreed with what he said. I know I lack confidence and sometimes I get bit too dependent. He really isn't a bad teacher, really. What he said to me made me bit... I don't know, sad... Maybe. Because he was right about my charcter. I am lacking in certain things and I am still trying and learning to be strong. But it's just that sometimes when I am climbing back up, something will come along and knock me down. It's tough but I will learn and have faith.

Thanks Wayne.

I just have to type it out here. Holding it in is just too difficult, trying to pretend but I am barely making it. I react to things differently because that is who I am. Trying to get over but can't. Really, the only person who can understand me is God and maybe, I guess maybe that is just enough. Only God.