My external harddisk had some problems today and till now, all my data is temporarily gone and I really hope it stayed that way and not reach the status of permantently gone. I shouldn't have gone home, shouldn't have told my parents about this. They ended quarreling because of this. It's all my fault again. I really don't want to cause all this unhappiness. I feel so dumb. I feel like an idiot and maybe I have always being one. God was right to say I have low self esteem. I do have one... I dunno, I have cried tll my tears gone dry and I dunno what I am feeling.

All I know is I am left with one thing to do, rely on God entirely for strength and comfort and peace. Nothing more I can do. Have come to the very end of my capabilities. Now I shall just read my art history and do my best for presentation. That's all I can do. That's all.