I am very thankful to God and HuiNan, Hwee Min's Mum, Marc, Jing Ting and her mother. Really thanks them for giving me and it's such a miracle. I remember being upset trying to figure out what to do, where to get money cos I know if my parent see my bank book and realise I draw like $500, they won't be happy and if I ask them, well they won't be happy either. But it's just a miracle because the next day, Hui Nan and Ah Min's mum gave me a love offering of $100. And on top of that, a week ago Zi Xuan return me the money she owned me cos of the Quidam ticket and all that which is like $150, so I got $250, left $250 more to go, exactly half. Amazingly, I dig through my treasure box and came out with $115 which I tell you is simply amazing because weeks ago, I empty all my money in piggy bank and there is no way I can manage to save that amount at all. Furthermore, the money which I saved up and set aside, I gave it to Ri Xin as love offering for her mission trip.

Yup and so I ended up with like $365, short of $135. And yup, my class fund is going to return me the $30 they own me so that makes $105 short. Surprisingly, the next day my mum passed me $100 and said it was part of the $270 that my dad owned me for spectacles. The weird thing is that why did my dad suddenly remember and usually when he passed me money, he give it in full and not halfway. Conclusion, it must be God's work. So I am like $5 short and it's amazing how I even get this $5. Haha... I dunno why but suddenly remember that when Enoch return me money for Cedric's birthday present, he gave me a $10 note and I dumped it in the front of my bag and sure enough there is was. So in the end, I got like wad, $5 extra and exactly, Jing Ting and her mum and Marc gave love offering too and so that is another $200 extra! What a miracle.

Well, I know Zi Xuan is worried about her dad paying so much cos both her brother and her going so it is like $1000 for two for mission trip and I thought I can give it to her and it's sad that she didn't accept it. I am kinda sad and I started thinking izzit because of the way I give it to her or simply she didn't even ask for love offering in the first place. Well, I didn't ask for it but I got it, THANKS GOD! And I started thinking that maybe I shouldn't have give in the first place. That was when I kinda snap out of it, I mean where did that thought came from, shouldn't have give in the first place? That isn't right. It kinda remind me of how when I was young. I would think that my parent don't love me. No one like me. God don't love me. No one cares and that I am an idiot and all these thoughts. Is this some kind of a attack from Satan to stop me from giving and starting to doubt myself that I am not good enough. Maybe it is. I kinda sad. You know, I think I read from somewhere before, that sometimes we have to learn to take because only then will the giver be able to give and be happy that he gives and knows what it is like to give something from the heart willingly and freely. But many people don't accept. Kinda remind me of Jesus and how He gave His life for all of us and its sad how sometimes people reject the gift that Jesus is offering. It always makes me sad and wanna cry most of the time when I think of all those people who reject Jesus and imagine how sad Jesus will be. Haiz~ I am talking a bit out of point here. But there is one thing I learn today, don't like Satan stop you from giving at the same time, learn to receive too.