Control my anger, control my tears though I rather let it out. So frustrated now. Why I get blamed for things that are not my fault? Sometimes I just feel so helpless about all this. My brother's hard disk got problem and he blamed it on me for lending it out. Its definitely not Nan's fault cos it was alright when she transferred the songs. The ridiculous thing is he blame me for lending his hard disk. Maybe I should refresh his memory but he is the one who wanted the christian songs in the first place and he say ok when I asked if can pass his hard disk to Nan for the songs. And now he is blaming me for it. It is no one fault that the stupid hard disk is screwed up. And I get blamed for it... Do I always get blamed for everything that is not my fault. I get blamed for the outcome of my brother and the family. Damn it, its not my fault ok? I hate this. I wished I was in school or sth this morning instead of at home. And I told my brother time and again to pass it to my godbrother check. I say so many times and he didn't do it so whose fault is it anyway. I gave me a solution and so many times he didnt do it. Damn! I hate this. I getting all so worked up, how am I going to concentrate for my test later. I was watching Lord of the rings and analysing the special effects and now I have no mood to carry on. And now even if I want to go to school I have to go to my brother's room and get my clothes cos my stupid wardrode is there. This is totally pissing me off. Things always goes wrong on days when it is not supose to. Its just be. Wadever... I can't be bothered. No mood... don't talk to me wadever... irritated... annoyed... feel like crying... feel like getting away... ARGH!!!

God help me.