Today I went for mission trip meeting and well I am determined to go. Though part of the trip is each person conducting a class in chinese... and yup I ought to be scared cos firstly me lead a class, secondly in chinese but surprising, I am not afraid. The peace I had in my heart comes from God and I know He see me and the rest through this whole mission trip. Can't let Satan frightened us off or stop us from doing God's works. Can see Satan at work already...

Really have to pray that Ophe sees that the fear in her heart is Satan's attack. I mean she was so excited about the whole trip and today during the meeting, it was like almost a 180 degree change in heart. I hope she sees that fear is just something Satan uses to prevent us from doing what God wants us to do. Satan places insecurities in our hearts, lead us into thinking we canot make it, we are not up to it and all that. I gone through all that. Took me more than 5 years (since pri school till now) to realise that. My childhood was one big mess and I back then put on so many masks, trying to hide my real self and I am really glad that through it all, God is there always picking me up and bit by bit, the masks crumpled. Now I am my true self, no longer trying to hide and pretend. No longer letting the fear and insecurities eat me up.

I guess in a time like this we need lots of prayer for the misssion trip. Really short of manpower. Only 3 of us is confirmed going... Hwee Min, Pei Shi and me. Actually mine is not confirmed... rather I confirmed it myself that I am going but that is because each time I tell my parents I am going, they didn't reply much. All I know I have to pay for the whole trip by myself and well its $450 plus and now I am saving money like mad. I dunno how I am going to come up with $450 by then. The latest reply I got from my dad was not a good one. He was like "Thailand? Got bird flu still wanna go?". Erm... Thailand got bird flu meh? I don't think so. I dun want all this to stop me from going. I know that God wants me to go. Really excited by it all.

I must believe in God that I get to go. Everything is possible through God... That is what Hui nan said and I totally agree. God can and will do everything or anything so long as it is in His plans. Oh... I almost forgot have to pray for Ri Xin too. I know she wants to go but that May period is busy for her. So glad that on the day we leaving for Thailand mission trip, her last paper ends that very day in the morning so she can go!!! Pray that Ri Xin can go for mission trip if that is what God wants her to do and for Hui Nan too.

Am listening to the song "How great is our God" by Chris Tomlin if I am not wrong. I just know that God will not allow all these obstacles to stop us from spreading the Truth, from sowing the seeds. Will there be any harvests? There might be. HEE HEE!

Looking back at what I writen, I only can say one thing, I dunno who I am writing too. Sometimes it seems like I am talking to myself, other times I typed as though I am talking to someone about something but it doesn't matter. My writing style doesn't matter. What matters is the mission trip and most importantly, God too.