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*|Thursday, February 09, 2006|*
*|It dosen't matter anyway

I am upset right now. The only thing that kept me going is knowing that God cares. All the hurt and anger that I have felt for the past few years... I let it go last year but it has all come back again. Why does it always affect me so deeply. I hate it! I hate it! Its just that so many things happen and though I trying to ignore them but today I just couldn't. Its just like wad happen a few years ago. Its hard growing up in a family like this. Sometimes I really feel like escaping from all these and live in my own world. All that hatred is coming back to me again and I don't want me to be my old self. Dun wanna be a cld person, don't want to box myself up and bottle everything inside of me. I know Jesus don't want me to do that and I don't want it but I can't hep it. I wish I had someone to talk to right now. I dunno why I blogging all these here but nevermind... it dosen't matter anyway. I dunno how I am going to do my homework when I am like that, guess I just live those blotches of tears on my art work and tell the teacher I just creating a design. It dosen't matter. It dosen't matter anyway.
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