Happy chinese new year! Sigh... It seems like every chinese new year is a challenge to me. I just feel lost sometimes and don't know what to do. Well, my older cousins they have no time for us younger cousins anymore cos they have babies to look after and well been the only girl among cousins round my age, its weird cos I don't know what to talk about and well... My guy cousins they played with cousin's Wendy's son, Favio. There is nothing much I can do since Favio obviously prefer playing with them, guess cos they are guys. Ok I am pretty much alone. Sigh... Well, the thing is I get to see both my guy cousins, Jason and Henry when I visit relatives from both my mother's and father's side cos their my cousin their parents are my mother's brother and my father's sister. Haha... Where are the girls???!!! Let's just hope that later in the afternoon when I go to my aunt's house, I can play with the dogs and that my mother allow me to.

Well... enough about complaining. I just lik to say that this past week is incredible!!! Each day except Sat I bump into AT LEAST 1 of my pri sch/sec sch/jc frens. Wow... wad a conincidence!!! So unbelievable. I wonder who I will bump into later. That be interesting.

Anyway I was thinking about Sunday's sermon on the bus ride home. I was thinking about blessings and stuff like that and I rmb my sunday school lesson. Well... I come to realise that many people do not understand the true meaning of blessings. Blessings in the past are really blessings from the heart and they may not always be about sth good. Let me see, how do I explain this. Genesis 49: 5-7 "Simeon and Levi are two of a ind - men of violence. O my soul, stay away from them. May I never be a party to their wicked plans. For in their anger they murdered men, and they crippled oxen just for sport. Cursed be their anger, for it it fierce; cursed be their wrath, for it is cruel. Therefore, I will scatter their descendants throughout the nation of Israel." This is part of the blessings Jacob gave to his sons. To many people, it may struck them as odd to consider all that as a blessing but it is really an example of true blessing cos Jacob pointed out his sons' weak points and in doing so, they know themselves better and can know changed their character and be a better man. That is what a true blessing should be. Well nowadays, the meaning of true blessings is lost. What we get are just empty blessings.

I also remember the Yi Xin's father (he gave the sermon) mentioning how he asked for many kids so that he can trained them to be children and soldiers of God. Haha... This makes me wonder how many children I will ever have if I ever get married. Haha... Well at least I have already had a taste of how parenting is like. Man... Sometimes you can love the kids and yet hate them at the same time. Difficult to love... especially kids nowadays when they are no longer innocent little angels. Haha... But still, I love playing with them, especially my god niece and god nephew. They are just so cute and cuddly but their cry/scream is unbearable.

I wonder if my dream of working in Disney animation studios is part of God's plan for me? Erm... Guess I wont know that now but He reveal it to me in time. That reminds me of another of my wish. Haiz~ I havn't practice playing the piano for a very very long time. Well... That is cos I didn't have much time for it. I really really wanna learn that!!! Sigh... guess I shal stop whinning and go sleep now.