Its super late now, 3am in the morning. Well currently working on my bespoked diary, the one with the map of Singapore. Kinda going through all my memory. U know, I really miss all the good old days I pend with my church buddies. I love them. They are the best sisters and brothers I can ever have.

Anyway, yesterday Hui Nan brought me to the History makers conference. These few days I have been thinking about what Hui Nan sms me, the msg she got for me when she was praying for me. And I really can't help feeling really sad. Here I am, knowing God and there all around me are friends who don't know God. No one knows when's the day Jesus will come back to Earth for the second time and I really don't want to see my friends not being able to go to heaven because they don't know God. I don't want my parents to not be able to go heaven too. I really wished all the friends I knew could come along as well. I really want them to believe in God. What the pastor said today just touched me. He told how he as a 16 year old boy preached to a 65 years old man and eventually the man was saved and his words to pastor richard was why didn't he come 65 years earlier. It was only then dod the old man really started living.

I know what the old man meant. I knew how life was without God. Growing up in a non-christian family is hard. I never know God right from the start and when I did know God, my parents could not help me stay on track. I left God for a few years and it was one of the toughest time in my life. Everything was downhill. I had no one to pick me up. No one to help me and I was only like primary school kid then. My parents are non-christians and I remembered there were a few times when they nearly not allowed my brother and I to go back to church. I always cried when they said that. I don't know why but church seem to be the only place I wanna be, away from all that chaos and I remembered how my brother and I had to fight hard for the chance to go back to church again. I am so glad that I know God when I was little because it is only when there is God in my life, that I am really living. I didn't waste much years being dead.

Now that I am in ADM, I am going to be very serious with my school work. I know what I have to do. I have to build up all my art skills because that is how God is going to use me for his works. Really have to thank Nan for asking me if I wanna go and it was pretty amazing. Hours before she sent me that sms, I was thinking will Nan bring me to one of the history makers church sessions and hrs later, her sms came in asking me if I will like to go and to think days before she sms me the msg about being a beacon of light to others. Looking at it, how can things be so coincidental. Only have one explanation for it, God has planned it all out nicely. Guess that means I don't have to worry about my future because it has all being mapped out. Shall let God reveal it all in His time.

Sigh... I am so sleepy now but I better think I should work more on my diary. ARGH!!! So many projects to complete. This is a killer! Haiz~ Nevermind, shall do it all for God. Well, these makes things more bearable and more meaningful. YEAH! For God then... For God!