Yeah... My birthday is coming... Shall make myself a birthday wishlist and see what I can do about it. Guess I shall start saving money in order to get what I want for my birthday. Haha

(1) this really long brown skirt that I saw in This Fashion ( tried it and I'm still considering if I should get it... I dun hav a long skirt at home and I dun mind getting one... really love it)

(2) Derwent colour pencils set of 72 (artists/studio) Erm... Should I just save money and buy only when I finished using all the colour pencils I have at home, but they are all of poor quality

(3) Watch!!! (Need that a lot to tell time, I can't keep taking out my hp to check the timing... in fact this should be no 1 on my wishlist... Haha)

(4) A big big good strong bag that is about A3 in size so I can dump all my stuff in especially needed on Friday for 2D lessons

(5) Christian books (love reading them) or C.S Lewis whole collection of The Lion, the witch and the wardrode or any art book (Went Kino that day to look at this animation book by my dean, Issac Kerlow "The art of 3D animation" AHHHHH.... $9o plus... cries... so ex, haha I won't mind having Andrew Wyeth book with of his paintings of an unknown woman. Its just so beautiful, really amazing)

(6) Actually, when I look at all the stuff I typed above... All I can is they are not really what I want but rather what I desire and they are not necessary actually. Because in the end if I were to die and go heaven, I can't bring them all to heaven. I guess my biggest and best birthday wish ever that I can get for myself is building a closer relationship with God. That is the most important thing of all. I still find it amazing that God cares for me, an unimportant being (that's my opinion) but in his eyes, He sees me as someone important. I am His daughter. I am not just anyone's daughter but a daughter of God... God, the Highest of all, the creator and I'm his daughter. That is just so wonderful. My true citizenship isn't Singapore but Heaven... Thats where I belong and that is where I wanna go when I finish walking my life on Earth. To be in heaven with God, with other christians and the angels... The best place I can go to... That place is even better than the heaven I imagined. I must live my life to the fullest, use the gifts He given me and work with Him to spread the word.

You know, I really can't imagine how I can go through life without God.I guess many people will ask how to you know God truely exist. I dunno how to explain, I just know He exists. God send Jesus to die on the cross for my sins and even though it happen a long time ago before I came into this world but that day I believed in Him, I really felt His great love, a love so great that He send His only son to die so crully on a cross but in doing so, washes our sins away. I can't imagine anyone other than God who will love me so much to carry all that out even before I was born. I guess you just have to experience His love, it just can't be explained. No matter what happen, I will always believe that God exists and that He cares for me. No matter what happens, that truth will remain in my heart, mind and soul. Will bring it with me everywhere I go, every moment. Nobody can take that truth away from me or convince me that it is false because it will never be, it is the Truth and the Truth it will remain. I am sure of that.

Whoa... I sound so serious but then again that is a really serious matter to me. Read this in a book "When angels speak"... It is actually the words spoken by Tess, Monica and the other angels in the TV series "Touched by and angel". This is probably told to a cop... Haha...

"There's only one thing in this world that is truely bulletproof. It's faith. Not faith in a gun that will shoot or a radio that works or even faith in your cop's instinct. It's the faith you wrap yourself up in every day of your life. Faith that no matter what happens, you won't lose God's love. And all the bullets in the world can't pierce it. And all the pills in the world can't replace it."