I had my first lesson today. HL101: Introduction to the study of literature. It was ok. Never knew that when reading short stories, u really really have to think a lot!!! Good thing we had the lecture notes, it did guide us but wow... The literature cher, Neil Murphy is really GOOD! Wow... If only I can think like him. Haha He told us to learn how to spell the word "chrysanthemums" properly... and to spell the author's name "D.H Lawrence" correctly too. LOL... Now I know why it is call "Odour of the chrysanthemums" but I dun really know how to express it in words... Erm...

I rmb that I told God to let me meet some christian frens during my 4 years course in ADM and wow I just realised that this girl I befriend from day 1 is actually a christian. She is Justina. I only found out she was a christian when we talked about the cca we wanna join. She joined Crusade for Christ... I think I got the name right. She asked me if I wanted to join but I dunno... They be focusing more on evangelism. Erm... Evangelism... Haiz I dunno. I wanna join Dance, I wanna be part of the work and study programme, I wanna be part of the ADM club. I want this, I want that... WAD A HEADACHE!!! I wish God can tell me which he want me to take up or take up none at all. Wish he start closing all these doors of opportunities and leave the door that we wants me to go through open. Really sometimes a simple thing as choosing which cca to do is really tough and if I dun rely on God but rely on myself, I am sure I end up making choices that I may regret later. Haha... That is the lesson that I learn in the bible yesterday. Wad can I say... God really has a way of teaching me things and letting me learn how to apply them. God is the BEST ever!

The reason why I wanted to work is well... Ok I must admit $12 per hour is really high and well I really dun wan my parents to keep paying for my transport fee or anything. I wanna pay for my piano lesson and transport fee and school miscellanous fee on my own. Its too taxing on them if I get them to pay for everything. Laptop is already very ex and so is my art materials! Sometimes I really feel guilty for asking my parents for money for everything. Well, I am only given $20 per week and the amt that my mother gives me for food is $3 or $4 per day. Unless I skip lunch which I always do, I cant think of a better way to get extra $. The only opportunity now is this work and study programme. Haiz~ Wad should I do God? Which day should I work and for how long???

I have to be more hardworking now! I want to be. Cannot waste my 4 years in ADM! God put me here to learn skills that can help me in using my spiritual gifts more effectively. ADM (Arts, Design & Media) and my spiritual gifts: craftsmanship and creative communication, are all related. Wanna use this gift and do God's work. Want God to use me. That reminds me of a question that my application bible got me thinking yesterday "How serious are you about God using you?"Its really a good qns to ponder on. Just how serious am I, I really dunno. Should not let my fear stop me from wanting God to use me. Have to step out of comfort zone, its tough but I guess its really worth it. For God, its really worth it...