These past 2 weeks has been really difficult for me and I dun think that the next few weeks will be better. I am like breaking down almost everyday. This is not me... This is so not me. Have to keep telling myself to snap out of it.

I can't stand it anymore God, God help me. I can't do it alone. I definitely can't and I know I am getting worse each day physically, emotionally and spiritually. ARGH!!! I wish I can just be more open and tell my church frens about it. I have fallen down on my knees and picking myself again knowing that this is the way that God wants me to walk is so tough. I wish I tell my church frens, I definitely do need them by my side but I just can't seem to tell them. God, I bet the adults will be wondering wads wrong with me cos I suddenly burst into tears and said I wanna go toilet and its just so frustrating. Why did I cry... I guess I can't contain my tears. I always can't control that. But really thankful that Min and Ophe came to look for me after that which made me cry even harder. I wish I can just to some place with God now. Just Him and me and for once... leave everything that is happening on Earth. Guess my entry dun make sense to many people cos they dunno wad is happening to me now. Shall go to sleep... Wanna have a long prayer with God.