This is wad happen on the same day that I went to Pulau Ubin. The reason why I split it up into 2 entries is cos it is really long! Haha! Finally back in SIngapore. Though I was very tired then, I went to Pit Lu's belated birthday! And it was really belated, about a month I think. Haha. I havn't seen her for a ver long time. She be studying chinese in NUS FASS. Guess thats means I won't get to see her that often since different university. We talked about school and orientation camps and all that. Guess all of us are really confused on the electives and minor part. Can someone kinda explain that to us cos reading it up on the school website doesn't seem to help at all!

We chatted a lot while eating our banana split at Gelare at Far East LevelOne. We alked about 03S73. About the guys and all the rumours going on in class during our JC years while in SAJC. We talked about last year valentine day and how it somehow bonded our class together except for Irwin who didn't participate in our exchanging of presents. Oh Now then I realise that the ferrero rocheo given to us by Shin was actually for Irwin. But it ended up in our stomach when Shin found out that Irwin didnt wanted to get Par anything and revealed himself to Par about him picking her name. Poor Par! I think we talked lots about how buddy-ly Siu Kwok is and that Siu Kwok being more like a sister to us than a brother. LOL!

We chatted about the rumour about Yan Jie and Joseph. Haha... Joseph apparently is scare of Yan cos Yan Jie is fierce. Yan, see lar... U so fierce! Abmit it lar, girl. LOL! Haha... Yun say she is going to tell Joseph to enter NTU Business. We trying to create opportunity for Yan and him to get together after his 2 years in NS. Wad a laugh! Yan say it is not possible but we still think that both of them are compatible. We chatted a lot on relationships and all that and our criterias of boyfriends.

For me, my boyfriend firstly must be a christian. Secondly, he have to accept the fact that I love God more than him. Thirdly, I prefer to have relationships that developed out of friendship. Erm... Think my criteria kinda ok to fulfill. Its not too tough. Haha... In the past, I thought my criterias were that the guy have to be sincere and understanding and all that. Not that these criterias aren't important, they are but they are not my top 3 criterias. Actually, since young my top 3 criterias have been the 3 that I mention just that I didn't realise it until recently. Haha... LOL! When I was really young, I know that I will only date a guy if I think he is "the one", the one chosen by God for me. Haha I still remember a few times when I thought that I like a particular guy or when I was going to accept a guy to be my boyfriend, there will always be this feeling that tells me that he is not the one and if I choose to ignore that feeling, it ended up bugging me so much so that I start to panic! It is as if there is an alarm system inside me that has gone off and is telling me that I am in danger if I accept! Haha Guess I finally realise that this particular nagging feeling is actually God's way of telling me that he is not "the one". Really thankful for that. If I have accpeted those guys to be my boyfriends, I am sure I ended up being guilty for breaking up or being heart broken when the relationship fail.

Haha... I only managed to sort out all these when I read this book "I kiss dating goodbye" by Joshua Harris. Actually, it is more of learning how to lead a life of purity that God wants of us and enjoying our gift of singleness that God has given. Come to think of it, I am so glad I am not attached or anything cos I know that I am not emotionally stable until recently. That is cos I just finally to learn to let go of all those things that tied me down emotionally, things that hurt me really badly. It is only recently that I forgive and let go of all the hatred and anger and sorrow. Now I am different from who I used to be in the past, a much much happier me, all thanks to God. Now I no longer worried over whether I get a boyfriend in the future, haha I shall leave all that to God. Why worry when God has already planned it all out, wait for Him to tell you who the person is and when it is the right time to get more serious about relationships.

Oh That reminds me of this thing going on at night on radio Class 95FM. Its a blind date radio programme thingie. My gosh... The girl who is supposed to choose a guy for a date to an event say that when she gets a boyfriend, 80% of her time will be spent with him. MY GOSH! 80%... thats a lot. If me, it be around 30%. I mean... Hello... I have frens and family, I can't just forget all about them and be with my boyfriend all the time. I won't let my life revolved around me and my boyfriend. 80%! THAT IS NUTS! 20% of time for God, frens, family and studies!!! That is so ridiculous. I can't do it. 80% means losing contact wif frens and family and not being connected to the world. Tat to me is too much time wasted on a guy. I mean, there has to be a balance between family, frens, life and boyfriend right. Haha.

Realise I really think a lot nowadays. That is good. My brain kinda rotting away liao. Haha Should start using it again!