I havn't been blogging for some time. Got a lot a lot of stuff to talk about. Today during Oikos's praise and worship session, I was so touched by the lyrics of the songs we sang. They are all about God of course. I just feel God's presence. Sometimes I feel that we sinners are not worthy of His love... He send Jesus to die on the cross for our sins. And God still loves us all who we are though sometimes we betray Him and leave Him, God is really a great father. Was very touched that I couldn't help but shed tears... I tried hard to contain my tears but apparently the harder I try to stop it, the more it flows. Guess God's love is too hard to contain inside the heart, it overflows. Sometimes I feel awkward crying in the middle of a praise and worship session and sometimes a bit embarrassed cos I feel like I am a cry baby. Haiz~ Maybe I shouldn't let what other people think affect me afterall this is a time between me and God. That reminds me of the 1hr or izzit 2hr of praise and worship session that we had during last year church camp. Thru out the whole camp I was down and thought that I am a failure in leading the group but God showed me that He loves me and I cried really hard when we sang the song "you yi wei shen" (translation: There is a God) and I cant help but feeling happy that I had good frens like Enoch, Min, Ophe they all. Haha In fact, I cried even harder when they hug me during the song "zai ye shu li wo men shi yi jia ren" (Translation: We are one family in God). Haha Come to think of it I am backup singer and yet I didnt sing cos I spend half my time crying. LOL, but you can't blame me God touched my heart! :)

That leads me to Sunday school praise and worship session. I just cant help feeling like it is a choir practise. Can't believe that we were made to sing "Holy, Holy, Holy" one more time cos it wasn't good enough. Really can't blame as there are so many high notes in this song and the first thing that we sing for the start of the day is a high note song. Cant even reach it! I wish the praise and worship session were like how it was in the past when Min, Ri Xin, Si Xiu, Pei Shi they all lead. Those were really good. The praise and worship sessions were really all about praising God and not like now. We sing for the sake of singing. In the first place, we combined our praise and worship session with the younger ones to show them how we lead worship sessions but in the end, we accomadate them in our worship sessions and never did show them how our sessions are. We did even acheive the purpose of combining worship sessions. Really wished it could be like how it was in the past, I really want it to be a session of everyone coming together praising God not only with our voices, but also with our hearts and souls. Haiz~

So excited... This coming saturday attending a course on discovering our spiritual gifts. Erm... I wonder what my spiritual gifts are. That reminds me of something Hui Nan said about today is that the special things about God's gifts to us is that He wont take them away. If that is the case shall use it to the fullest but first have to discover what it is. So exciting. The course is from 9am to 9pm. Whoa LONG! They better have breaks in between cos it takes time to absorb what is being said but the good thing is it is in English which means it is so much easier to understand. Haha. This course is so worth going! If anyone who happen to read my blog, which I doubt there be many HAHA, and wanna go for the course, tell me and we go. :) LOL!

Anyway, last Sunday I went to Kelong. Haiz~ So many things I wanna say but whoa there is only this much that I can type. This entry is already super long liao. Haha Aiya... Shall blame on Enoch. See lar, U didnt blog about the Kelong trip, if not I can save my time and just copy and paste. Haha. LOL... Kidding only ar Enoch, dun angry hor! Kelong trip is fun. Ate lots of SEAFOOD, FRESH FROM THE OCEAN! YUMMY! Haha played lots of mahjong and sang karaoke and watch vcds! I must say I am very surprised that they even have a tv there, me still wondering where the electricity come from. Afterall we are smack in the middle of the ocean with nothing but water surrounding us! Oh We had a fantastic dinner, a great BBQ (love the roasted marshmellows and hotdogs and STING RAYS) and a SUPERB breakfast consisting of FRESH (LET ME EMPHASIZE THE WORD FRESH!!!!!!) fish, sotong and cuttlefish porridge. Haha Must thanks Enoch for giving me his share of the porridge. I love it!!! Had a great time, life is so simple there. Haha I don't think I going to give an hour by hour account of wad I did there... If I do, this entry will be how long liao!

Oh But did I tell you the boat ride was really great except for the occasional rockiness. Love standing at the back of the boat feeling the wind in my hair. Its just so great and I see birds soaring in the air! WOW! Actually sitting at the back of the boat is fun too. Rmb that on the boat ride home, Enoch and me occupiedthe back of the boat and both of us tried not to doze off. Cant blame, The "Chen" family (Ri Xin, Enoch, Qian) and I only slept like 2hrs plus only cos we stayed up all night playing mahjong and seeing the fisherman bring in their catch in the wee hours of the morning round 5 or 6am plus. I just love the back of the boat, so peaceful. Love looking at how the mini "water fountain" created and the surrounding trees that are super far away. Haha. Did I mention that the boat we are on broke down, BROKE DOWN after we depart from the Kelong and we havnt even travelled for 10 MINTUES, 10 MINUTES!!! The Kelong is like so near... Aiya the adults are in another boat and they went off without noticing that our boat died on us and was drifting off course! HEY!!! COME BACK HERE!!! But in the end, the engine was fixed up, all was fine and we were back on course, back to Singapore. HOME SWEET HOME! I miss Kelong!

Haha I think I better end off liao. YIPEE! Before some people complain it is too long!