*|Camp and xmas production!
Camp is ultra fun!!! I learnt a lot of stuff about God and all tat. Hee Hee The camp has brought me one step closer to God. Sth happen during the camp and I was so upset about it tat I cried. I really cried my heart out... not once but 4 times. Good thing I had Enoch and Hwee Min standing by me. Actually tat only makes me cry harder cos God gave me frens when I needed them. I cried during the praise and worship session when Shan Shan lao shi shared her stuff. The song was so touching and after tat all the songs were about God's love. I couldn't hold back my tears. Just kept crying. The past 2 days of camp was torture 4 me. Full of sadness and loneliness and I kept wishing I didnt go for camp. Kept wishing it be all over. The person I wanted to confide in most couldnt be there 4 me. But during e praises and worship session... while singing the songs, I just can feel God's love, his comfort. It feels really good to be in his embrace. I never want to leave it. From then on I was much happier cos no matter how some ppl may dislike me, be it my very best fren or some other ppl, God will still love me for who I am. I am happy wif tat and so I cried a lot tat day. Come to think of it, it was so embarrassing, I was one of the back up singers and I couldnt sing a lot of the songs cos I was crying. Somehow I was smiling, laughing and crying at e same time. Crying cos I am so touched tat God loves me. Smiling and laughing cos I know tat with God, no matter how sad I may be, God be there to bring me thru and HE brighten up my life always and always. Really must thank God for everything HE done for me. Thank him for giving me a mortal during the camp to listen to my troubles. THANK YOU GOD!!!
Xmas production rehearsal is going more smoothly each day! Hwee Min suggested using this song "Give me one reason" by Zoegirl for the skit. It remind me of sth tat happen during my 18th bday. I liked this guy but somehow I kept thinking of him and it got in the way of my studies. Finally on my bday, I picked up the courage to ask God to tell me if whether it be worth to be with tat guy. Somehow in my heart, I knew the answer would be no and true enough, God told me no. I cried at lot tat day. I realised tat it is time for me to face reality tat day. The guy did tell me he had a crush on me but I didnt reply him then. Actually the truth is I do like him but if God says no then I will listen to God instead. It is realy tough to do tat but God knows wad best for me, I should do wad he says cos God will never says things or tell me to do things tat He knows will do no good to me. I accepted it after much tears... haha on my 18th bday somemore but if tats e right thing to do, I will do it. I will listen to God. This song "Give me one reason" really reminds me of tat guy but I deal wif it somehow. I will learn to let go and move on. With God by my side, it be much easier to get on wif life. It will be.
"Give me one reason" by Zoegirl
Give me one reason to live without Him
Give me one reason to walk away
I know you don't understand this feeling
How can I show
That He is the reason I have to let you go
I've tried so hard to change your mind
I always thought that you'd understand the reasons why
Why I don't want to do the things that I used to do
Now that my heart and my soul belong to God and God alone
Still every night's a fight to make it through
I can't deny I'm still in love with you
But how can you expect me to
Walk with Him and give myself to you
Give me one reason to live without Him
Give me one reason to walk away
I know you don't understand this feeling
How can I show
That He is the reason I have to let you go
Boy, I still long for your embrace
But what I've found in God, oh, it could never ever be replaced
Still I pray for the chance
As you slip through my hands you'll come around
But your heart's so far away from the words I'm trying to say
Wish I could hold you both and still be true
There's only one thing left for me to do
Baby, I love you
But I can't stay with you unless you love Him too
Give me one reason to live without Him
Give me one reason to walk away
I know you don't understand this feeling
How can I show
That He is the reason I have to let you go
I've found the path that I've gotta take
No turning back, back to the old ways
Got a chance to take
Sacrifice to make
Whatever it takes I won't turn away
Give me one reason to live without Him
Give me one reason to walk away
I know you don't understand this feeling
How can I show
That He is the reason I have to let you go
Give me one reason to live without Him
Give me one reason to walk away
I know you don't understand this feeling
How can I show
That He is the reason I have to let you go
*|cailing scribbled on the sand at 1:02 AM|*
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